i just really need to get all this out...so here goes. this gets a bit complicated so bear with me.<br><br>
so i am married and we have a kid together. we were happy for the first few years of our marriage but recently things have started to go downhill. i'm not going to get into that right now but needless to say we're not happily married. so a few weeks ago ive started talking to an old friend online. ive never met him but we clicked immeidetly. it started out innocently but we had so much in common it eventually lead to something more. so we kind of started an online relationship. he told me from the start that he was still married and had kids but they were seperated and were just living together until she had the means to move out. he also told me his wife had a boyfriend. after awhile he told his wife about us and she said she was happy for him. but shortly after that he started acting kind of strange and when i asked him about it he said he and his wife had talked and that she wasnt as comfotable with us as she had thought. he said he still loves her and didnt want to see her hurt. i told him that i understood and that maybe we shouldnt talk anymore. which i of course really didnt want to happen. we both agreed we still wanted to keep talking but we ended up ending our romantic relationship. its been really hard because i still think about him daily and really want to be with him. but it also sucks being #2 on the list. i told him that i would wait for him as long as it takes and i will. i'm trying to be understanding since they still have kids and are of course still married but it just feels so unfair. she has a boyfriend but hes not allowed to be with someone else? i'm just dealing with all kinds of mixed emotions and dont know what to do. so anyway thanks for putting up with my ranting hnest opinions on the matter would be great.
so i am married and we have a kid together. we were happy for the first few years of our marriage but recently things have started to go downhill. i'm not going to get into that right now but needless to say we're not happily married. so a few weeks ago ive started talking to an old friend online. ive never met him but we clicked immeidetly. it started out innocently but we had so much in common it eventually lead to something more. so we kind of started an online relationship. he told me from the start that he was still married and had kids but they were seperated and were just living together until she had the means to move out. he also told me his wife had a boyfriend. after awhile he told his wife about us and she said she was happy for him. but shortly after that he started acting kind of strange and when i asked him about it he said he and his wife had talked and that she wasnt as comfotable with us as she had thought. he said he still loves her and didnt want to see her hurt. i told him that i understood and that maybe we shouldnt talk anymore. which i of course really didnt want to happen. we both agreed we still wanted to keep talking but we ended up ending our romantic relationship. its been really hard because i still think about him daily and really want to be with him. but it also sucks being #2 on the list. i told him that i would wait for him as long as it takes and i will. i'm trying to be understanding since they still have kids and are of course still married but it just feels so unfair. she has a boyfriend but hes not allowed to be with someone else? i'm just dealing with all kinds of mixed emotions and dont know what to do. so anyway thanks for putting up with my ranting hnest opinions on the matter would be great.