O.k. being a newbie I know I'm throwing out my personal life pretty early seeing as I don't know any of you but since you all believe in the same things I do and such I'd love to get your opinions. I'm married, have been for 5 years. I love my husband to death but the last 2 years I've been actually happy with him probably 25% of the time. Here's the thing about that time, we both changed. I became a vegetarian, this wasn't a huge step for me though as I've been a huge animal lover my whole life and refused to eat red meat, and most dairy products when I was 12. My husband became a punk, started a band, started drinking a lot, and was and is hardly ever home. Nowdays when he is home I just can't seem to talk to him. I had him watch meet your meat and he got very angry when he saw it at the factory farm industry then an hour later proceeded to go eat some hotdogs with out flinching. Since then he hasn't even tried to cut down his meat in take. He constantly makes fun of the way I eat and my beliefs. He can't stand being out in nature- which is something I can't live without. My major I'm going for is outdoor education/leadership so I will most certainly be living in the mountains either in a small town or in the middle of nowhere when I graduate. He wants to live in the city. The only things we share in common what so ever is our love for fantasy/adventure movies, Buffy and Angel, and most music we listen to. I honestly can't remember the last time we had sex and he completely spaces out birthdays, anniversaries, valentine's,etc. I'm not asking for some expensive gift, a card, a love letter, a flower, anything. He also has suddenly gotten a mean temper which has been scaring me. One time he couldn't find me for 20 min. in a video store than when he did he grabbed me loudly cussing me out and dragged me out of the store. He had bought a large soda in there before and wanted to go to Carl's Jr. for something to eat and I told him it was late and it would be closed. He dragged me there than tried to open the door and it was of course locked he then threw his soda at the door and cussed out the employees inside. I was very upset and told him I wanted to walk home alone,we ended up fighting and he basically ended up at one point calling me his "property". I didn't talk to him for 2 days. He's punched in the walls at home, put me down repeatedly,etc. He has never hit me but a couple of times has grabbed me hard and shook me. The thing is I know I should leave him but I stupidly keep holding on to the hope of having what we had when we were first together but I know deep down that that's never going to happen. I also moved in with him straight from living at home and am scared to death of living on my own.