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so..
i get that people (aka my friend
who's terrified of frogs and literally gets sweaty and dizzy even seeing those candy ones anywhere near her.) can have phobias of things that are COMPLETELY harmless, but is it ok to have one if its something dangerous? or..semi-dangerous?
ive been terrified by elevators for years. terrified enough to take 24 flights of stairs up certain buildings, and to once forced up onto the balcony of a hotel literally refuse to come down again (um..hello? rational thought? you can't live up there?!?! you HAVE to come down) for about 5 hours
the only time ive taken one in the last year was to see my grandma in hospital and i was so terrified that as soon as i got out of it a
. stupid huh?
anyway, new job started today. making coffee and the like in an extravagent office building. awesome job, like the manager, love making coffee, its all good. but..
for about an hour each morning my duties involve riding up and down the elevator taking orders and delivering coffees to those actually IN the building. sigh. when i was told that, i almost ran. BUT decided that was stupid and that it was FINALLY time to face this. so i did. survived the whole hour. barely. and one could say 'well now i know i can do it, this job will be a cinch' except thats just not the case. i figure the more times i do it, the danger doesn't reduce. it wasj ust luck that got me through. you know?
i know..i know..people travel in them all the time. thats the only thought that got me through. but people in the building just happened to comment (several seperate people?! ) about the dodginess of these ones and how they always get stuck etc etc ..and now that im home and thinking about it..i dont think i can do this.
do i force myself to? or just get another coffee job (lets face it, theyre easy to pick up, especially around melbourne) somewhere that doesn't involve daily hours of elevators??
i like the fact that i have the job NOW. but it wouldn't take long. sigh.
i just..i dont want to quit. but...i really..i dont know. i sound like such a baby. but im not talking 'oo i don't like these darn machines' im talking can't breathe, going to be sick, terrified each and every time. sigh.
advice (probably a knock on the noggin' and stern word about wasting employment, however replaceable) would be amazing..
i get that people (aka my friend

ive been terrified by elevators for years. terrified enough to take 24 flights of stairs up certain buildings, and to once forced up onto the balcony of a hotel literally refuse to come down again (um..hello? rational thought? you can't live up there?!?! you HAVE to come down) for about 5 hours

the only time ive taken one in the last year was to see my grandma in hospital and i was so terrified that as soon as i got out of it a

anyway, new job started today. making coffee and the like in an extravagent office building. awesome job, like the manager, love making coffee, its all good. but..
for about an hour each morning my duties involve riding up and down the elevator taking orders and delivering coffees to those actually IN the building. sigh. when i was told that, i almost ran. BUT decided that was stupid and that it was FINALLY time to face this. so i did. survived the whole hour. barely. and one could say 'well now i know i can do it, this job will be a cinch' except thats just not the case. i figure the more times i do it, the danger doesn't reduce. it wasj ust luck that got me through. you know?
i know..i know..people travel in them all the time. thats the only thought that got me through. but people in the building just happened to comment (several seperate people?! ) about the dodginess of these ones and how they always get stuck etc etc ..and now that im home and thinking about it..i dont think i can do this.
do i force myself to? or just get another coffee job (lets face it, theyre easy to pick up, especially around melbourne) somewhere that doesn't involve daily hours of elevators??
i like the fact that i have the job NOW. but it wouldn't take long. sigh.
i just..i dont want to quit. but...i really..i dont know. i sound like such a baby. but im not talking 'oo i don't like these darn machines' im talking can't breathe, going to be sick, terrified each and every time. sigh.
advice (probably a knock on the noggin' and stern word about wasting employment, however replaceable) would be amazing..