So my now former SO of 2.5 years that I wanted to marry and all that which broke up with me 6 weeks ago is now in town until Friday. He's going to hang out with me for a while (I took off work to hang out with him this week before we broke up).
I laid my cards out on the table this morning and said, I hate to bring this up, but you know my ex from 10 years ago that I was at least as close to as you recently blew me off and told me he was married as an after thought. That's probably going to happen to us, and choose how you spend your time here wisely, because this might be the last time you see me or talk to me.
I said if he really wants to be friends the only way that will happen is if I completely fall out of love with him as quickly as possible and fall in love with someone else, so he won't be able to be friends with me again until I'm in love with someone else and there is zero chance that he can hurt me anymore.
I told him I think of losing him as like losing my recently deceased cat. I can't replace him or her, but I can learn to love another in a different way for different reasons.
I slept on the couch last night and let him sleep in my room. I had all kinds of bizzarre dreams of trying to crawl towards his door and get his attention, but I knew it was all pathetic and he totally ignored me. Then in my dream I started listening to "The Last Day of Our Aquaintance" by Sinead Oconner.
I think about how loyal I'm willing to be towards people and how easily they have trashed their relationships with me and it's really upsetting.
I honestly don't think it's hit him how serious this is. Or at least that's what I tell myself to feel better about the idea that he could throw me away. This is my 4th 2year plus relationship that's end the same way, they basically got bored or scared and ditched me. It's really starting to piss me off how unappreciative people are. I'm not a push over or needy, but I'm a damn good, loyal and caring girlfriend.
I laid my cards out on the table this morning and said, I hate to bring this up, but you know my ex from 10 years ago that I was at least as close to as you recently blew me off and told me he was married as an after thought. That's probably going to happen to us, and choose how you spend your time here wisely, because this might be the last time you see me or talk to me.
I said if he really wants to be friends the only way that will happen is if I completely fall out of love with him as quickly as possible and fall in love with someone else, so he won't be able to be friends with me again until I'm in love with someone else and there is zero chance that he can hurt me anymore.
I told him I think of losing him as like losing my recently deceased cat. I can't replace him or her, but I can learn to love another in a different way for different reasons.
I slept on the couch last night and let him sleep in my room. I had all kinds of bizzarre dreams of trying to crawl towards his door and get his attention, but I knew it was all pathetic and he totally ignored me. Then in my dream I started listening to "The Last Day of Our Aquaintance" by Sinead Oconner.
I think about how loyal I'm willing to be towards people and how easily they have trashed their relationships with me and it's really upsetting.
I honestly don't think it's hit him how serious this is. Or at least that's what I tell myself to feel better about the idea that he could throw me away. This is my 4th 2year plus relationship that's end the same way, they basically got bored or scared and ditched me. It's really starting to piss me off how unappreciative people are. I'm not a push over or needy, but I'm a damn good, loyal and caring girlfriend.
