i'm goin' off the paxil and i'm goin' insa-a-a-ane

day four with no paxil. things aren't looking so good from here. there really should be laws about this stuff - that and warnings about what trying to get off this devil's drug does to people before prescribing it. this is my second attempt - the first time i only lasted about two days before hopping back on the paxil train. anyone interested in the hell i am currently living in can visit www.quitpaxil.org.

i am presently self medicating with soy delicious chocolate obsession. had to leave work today. would like to leave life and hide under the covers for eternity. tried that but couldn't sleep. bawling my eyes out.

began this nightmare because i was under an extreme amount of stress after beautiful baby was born. couldn't handle it and started getting angry. loved baby too much to not do anything and so agreed to the paxil. breastfed while on it. "horrible mother" comments can ensue - i deserve it.

don't know where i'm going to go from here... st. john's wort? valarian? those comfy white rooms where the walls are all padded and the required dress code includes jackets that do up in the back?