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Alright, so I would have developed one looong ago if I could figure out how to make myself throw up. I still try to a lot, I'll stick a toothbursh in my throat, etc. but I guess my body is just too...good or something and unless I'm really sick I don't throw up.<br><br>
Anyway, I am in high school and really involved in acting. That, my dears, is a terrible combination. In high school, well obviously there is an obsession with being thin, but at least there are a lot of people who aren't stick thin. Unfortunately in the showbiz world, hardly anyone is overweight in the slightest. People in the healthy range look fat. So, when I was younger I used to be overweight, weighing 135 lbs at 5 feet tall. My sister and I went on a very healthy diet, actually, and I went down to 125. I was happy, life was great. I began to excercise more, watch what I ate, etc and eventually reached my goal of 117 lbs! but now, a year later, I am up to 124 and I feel terrible. It seems like everytime I eat I feel guilty. It's not even "I shouldn't have eaten that cookie" now it's more like , "I'm so fat, I can't believe I ate all that cereal for breakfast" (with "all that" meaning less than a cup). Seriously, even when I'm starving and I eat an apple or something, I feel bad afterward for eating. I count the calories of everything I eat. If I consume more than 1300 in one day I feel TERRIBLE...and you know what the worst part of all this is? I STILL CAN'T LOSE ANY WEIGHT! It sees like the less I eat, the more weight I gain. Or if I start to eat healthy and lose a pound, I'll suddenly want chocolate. So instead of buying me one little bar, my mom buys a whole bag and I end up eating it all...in like a week...<br><br><br><br>
Point: I want to lose weight, but I really don't want to go down the scary path that I seem to be headed towards. My mom would jokingly say before that anorexics, etc, counted calories and obsessed over food like I did, but she thinks I am so healthy that it's not even possible. heck, I didn't think it was possible for me! Anyone have any advice over how I can eat healthy,lose some weight, but not obsess?
Anyway, I am in high school and really involved in acting. That, my dears, is a terrible combination. In high school, well obviously there is an obsession with being thin, but at least there are a lot of people who aren't stick thin. Unfortunately in the showbiz world, hardly anyone is overweight in the slightest. People in the healthy range look fat. So, when I was younger I used to be overweight, weighing 135 lbs at 5 feet tall. My sister and I went on a very healthy diet, actually, and I went down to 125. I was happy, life was great. I began to excercise more, watch what I ate, etc and eventually reached my goal of 117 lbs! but now, a year later, I am up to 124 and I feel terrible. It seems like everytime I eat I feel guilty. It's not even "I shouldn't have eaten that cookie" now it's more like , "I'm so fat, I can't believe I ate all that cereal for breakfast" (with "all that" meaning less than a cup). Seriously, even when I'm starving and I eat an apple or something, I feel bad afterward for eating. I count the calories of everything I eat. If I consume more than 1300 in one day I feel TERRIBLE...and you know what the worst part of all this is? I STILL CAN'T LOSE ANY WEIGHT! It sees like the less I eat, the more weight I gain. Or if I start to eat healthy and lose a pound, I'll suddenly want chocolate. So instead of buying me one little bar, my mom buys a whole bag and I end up eating it all...in like a week...<br><br><br><br>
Point: I want to lose weight, but I really don't want to go down the scary path that I seem to be headed towards. My mom would jokingly say before that anorexics, etc, counted calories and obsessed over food like I did, but she thinks I am so healthy that it's not even possible. heck, I didn't think it was possible for me! Anyone have any advice over how I can eat healthy,lose some weight, but not obsess?
