I have been married for 12 1/2 yrs. I am married to an alcoholic who just refuses to get sober again. He was sober in AA for 6 yrs and went back to drinking about 3 yrs ago. I just can't leave him, I feel stuck, and I worry about him. There is alot of insanity in my world right now. Every once in a while I meet someone new and get a crush on them, and it never goes any further than that. A wheelchair bound man moved in across the street about 2 months ago. He is married and has 2 step sons. He and his wife constantly fight, and I really sense an attraction between us. We got really friendly, his sons come across to hang out on the patio when I am out there, my husband is always inside watching baseball and drinking so he has no clue. I am trying to make my conversations as short as possible with my neighbor. We got to talking alot last week when his wife was rushed to the hospital. He had asked me for a ride to see her one night. We just have a connection. I started to ask him if he needed things from the store, and picked up 2 huge bags of dog food for him, called him several times to see if he needed anything. He calls me frequently also. My friend thinks I am obsessed because her mother is a psychic and did a reading for me about a year ago, and told me that I was going to find happiness with a man who is disabled and has 2 sons. I feel like such a fool. I will go on with my day, and do my best not to talk to him today. Everyone is judging me lately. I am human, crushes do happen. My friends in my support group keep telling me that I am crossing the line with this man, I am tired of being judged.