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i'm mare. i'm sixteen years young. i've been vegetarian since january - wow, a whole year has almost passed. i've been aware of veganism since i was 6 or 7, from my vegan older cousin. i used to ask her so much about it and think she was the coolest person alive for doing this, and i finally realized that I too could take this step. i chose this lifestyle main because of my opposition of factory farming and animal cruelty. vegetarian never really made sense to me personally because dairy cows suffer as much, if not more. also, eggs always grossed me out anyway. shortly after cutting out meat i went vegan as well.

but - i have a problem, which is the main motivation of me finding this forum (which seems great by the way!). ever since may i have come dangerously close to an eating disorder. lately i've been eating normal with occasional binge eating. but this summer, i used laxatives, and i got into a horrible starve/binge/purge (by laxative or overexercise) cycle. so now, i eat normally, i exercise 3 to 4 times per week. completely healthy. almost. food still seems WEIRD to me. today i found myself wishing there could be pills, with calories and nutrients, elliminating the need for food. i wish i could photosynthesize for christs sake. i don't understand criticism on veganism.. are cookies and burgers REALLY that important? i don't understand this madness. women who are seemingly healthy but frown at mirrors and ask their friends if "these jeans make them look fat". i hate food sometimes. i want to leave all of this behind, and sometimes veganism seems cloudy with this subject. i know i honestly believe in veganism, and i chose this before my eating became disordered. but i feel like veganism is hindering my ability to leave it behind. i'm horribly confused, and i really need this forum to seek advice from healthy, veg people!

i want to stick with veganism. i know that. my troubles are nothing compared to that of tortured animals, or the troubles of this horrible meat industry in general. i just can't deal with all of this.

by the way, one last note: i do see a psycologist. she isn't much help with this because she won't trust me when i say that i believe in veganism. she sees it as means of restriction in my case. it really upsets me that she can't see the gray areas of this, she simply cannot understand or look at me with more respect. and i am seeing this person on request of my mother, anyway, so i don't have much control over the situation.

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welcome to veggieboards.

I don't really know how to help. But you should definitely check out our ED thread (it's in the 'General Health' subforum) for some advice.
 

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Welcome. I'm glad to hear you are seeing a psychologist, but like veggiejanie said, you may want to find one that is more veggie friendly, although, you could also see where the psychologist is comming from, as it's not unheard of for people with eating disorders to become vegetarian or vegan so they will be able to have an 'excuse' not to eat high fat animal foods.

As long as you know you are doing it for the right reasons, and not to restrict your diet further, it's all good L)

I hope you will find some support on the boards for both your veg*nism and your ED.
 

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hi and welcome. you're incredibly articulate for a 16 year old. i hope your psychologist can help you find the tools and inner power to quickly overcome your ED.
 

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Originally Posted by murry View Post

... i've been vegetarian since january - wow, a whole year has almost passed. ....

but - i have a problem, which is the main motivation of me finding this forum (which seems great by the way!). ever since may i have come dangerously close to an eating disorder. lately i've been eating normal with occasional binge eating. but this summer, i used laxatives, and i got into a horrible starve/binge/purge (by laxative or overexercise) cycle. so now, i eat normally, i exercise 3 to 4 times per week. completely healthy. almost. food still seems WEIRD to me. ...

by the way, one last note: i do see a psycologist. she isn't much help with this because she won't trust me when i say that i believe in veganism. she sees it as means of restriction in my case. it really upsets me that she can't see the gray areas of this, she simply cannot understand or look at me with more respect. and i am seeing this person on request of my mother, anyway, so i don't have much control over the situation.

see you all around the boards


Great to have you here.

Don't count me as a specialist, but I think that you have an eating disorder, but you seem to control it better than before. Veganism is always a concern of people treating anorectics as you can reduce your calorie intake (with the wrong choices of foods - which non-anorectic vegans don't do BTW). Seeing a psychologist on request of another person reduces the effectiveness.

Most probably you'd like to gain control over the situation: talk with you psychologist - make her understand (by deed more than by words) that veganism doesn't stand for calorie restriction, talk about the goal of the treatment, voice you concern of being out of control, being sent, instead of being a partner in the whole process. Maybe then you'll get some help out of the therapy. If all doesn't work, changing the psychologist is also an option, but I'd say rather try without a change of therapeut.

Good luck!

See you VB!
 
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