I'm sorry for your struggle
An ED is a horrible thing to go through. Please seek some counseling - I'm positive you could find someone who would help you. I've been with friends as they struggled through the same thing, and it isn't easy. If you want a listening ear, you can send me a message if you like.
You're not the only person who's slipped up. I was a pescetarian for a long time despite feeling like a hypocrite because I kept craving fish. I'd eaten meat so long that it took me a few months to figure out how to eat well without it.
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In the morning i may have yougurt 150 grams worth witch is 80 calories
then a lunch i either have a fruit pot 70 calories or rice cakes 60 calories and slim a soup 75 calories
Then for dinner i have 2 veggie burgers witch are 85 calories each and veg witch is 80 calories and some times i have chips that are oven cooked witch are about 158 calories
Some times i have other veggie things like quaterpouders or veggie sausages
I think it would help you immensely to eat more of your calories earlier in the day. When you're going about your day, that's when you need your energy. Your breakfast should be the biggest meal and your dinner should be the smallest. Also, don't be afraid of little healthy snacks - they keep your blood sugar from dropping so you don't feel so desperately starved at each mealtime.
Once I figured this out, I felt a LOT better throughout each day. For breakfast, I'll have a banana and toast with some peanut butter. Halfway to lunch, I'll have an apple. For lunch, I might eat a cup of vegetable-bean soup, some fresh cut-up veggies and hummus. If my stomach growls before I'm out of work, I eat a small granola bar. Then for dinner, all I really need is a small light meal with some good nutrients, because I'm winding down the day and don't need a big energy boost.
Add oatmeal, peanut butter and/or fruit to your breakfasts. Eat more calories at lunch - whole wheat crackers, hummus, salad with chickpeas, a baked potato, veggie bean chili, whatever you like. Fill up on fresh veggies and fruits as much as possible - you can never have too many of those. If you feed your body with better food, it won't cry out for with cravings for the nutrients in the foods you used to eat.
Hang in there. Keep pushing