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to go back to day treatment for ed or not?? i just weighed myself and the number was fine. not great, but fine. and i had a lovely lonnnggg talk with my sister/best friend on the phone and im soooo happy. and it feels like everything will be alright.... although today and yestrday (thanksgiving) and the day before that were really bad ed wise. its just when im in these good moods i never think i need to go back to the treatment center. even though ever since i got back from new york last summer it has been a downward slope.... soooo<br><br><br><br>
ahh! i dont know what to do. im doing awfully in school. im partying too much. pretty much everything is out of control and its all my fault... im 'in my symptoms' more often than i um... should be.. but i know i want to get better..... i just. oh sorry. rambling. any opinions would be much appreciated because even though my therapist wants me back in intensive treatment its up to me, and i dont know what to do with myself.<br><br><br><br>
this would be the third time in 16 months. i feel like such a failure!! <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="/images/smilies/doh.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title=":doh:">
 

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there are a whole bunch of things in your post that, once you re-read, you should see that you still need the treatment. good luck.
 

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<a href="http://drfuhrman.com/disease/MensHealth.aspx" target="_blank">http://drfuhrman.com/disease/MensHealth.aspx</a>
 

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umm..yeah that link is for erectile disfunction....she's talking about an eating disorder (ED).<br><br><br><br>
and tomato..you are not a failure. i have seen many of your posts and they have helped me while I am trying to recover. everyday is a struggle. please stay strong and take care of yourself <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="/images/smilies/smiley.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title=":)">
 

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I'd listen to your therapist... that's what he/she is there for! They know you and what you are going through, and even if you do have to go back, it can only help more.<br><br><br><br>
You aren't a failure, you are TRYING and that really counts for a lot. You really do care, and you can do this.
 

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My bad, sorry about that.<br><br><br><br>
Gosh that is funny <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="/images/smilies/smiley.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title=":)">
 

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You should reread your own words and pretend like they belong to some else-you would suggest that person go into therapy, no? If you are bouncing back and forth between ED and not ED and feel like your life is "out of control", it is likely you have issues that could use therapy. Furthermore, if your life is out of control and you are still managing to keep your ED into parameters you are comfortable with, it is likely that your ED will catch up to you. Control is a big issue in eating disorders- I know it always was for me. I could have no control over the difficulty of my life, but I could always control, manipulate and mess with my food intake.<br><br><br><br><br><br><div class="quote-container"><span>Quote:</span>
<div class="quote-block">Originally Posted by <strong>tomatotomato</strong> <a href="/forum/post/0"><img alt="View Post" class="inlineimg" src="/img/forum/go_quote.gif" style=""></a><br><br>
to go back to day treatment for ed or not?? i just weighed myself and the number was fine. not great, but fine. and i had a lovely lonnnggg talk with my sister/best friend on the phone and im soooo happy. and it feels like everything will be alright.... although today and yestrday (thanksgiving) and the day before that were really bad ed wise. its just when im in these good moods i never think i need to go back to the treatment center. even though ever since i got back from new york last summer it has been a downward slope.... soooo<br><br><br><br>
ahh! i dont know what to do. im doing awfully in school. im partying too much. pretty much everything is out of control and its all my fault... im 'in my symptoms' more often than i um... should be.. but i know i want to get better..... i just. oh sorry. rambling. any opinions would be much appreciated because even though my therapist wants me back in intensive treatment its up to me, and i dont know what to do with myself.<br><br><br><br>
this would be the third time in 16 months. i feel like such a failure!! <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="/images/smilies/doh.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title=":doh:"></div>
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xoxoxo XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO<br><br><br><br>
you are so inspirational Tomato!! amazing, fantastic, brave. you'll find a way through this<img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="/images/smilies/smiley.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title=":)"><img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="/images/smilies/smiley.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title=":)">
 

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i LOVE u taurus....<br><br><br><br>
i dont know what im doing. restricting, yes, purging, yes, do i want to get better, i dont know, do i want to get worse, i dont knwo. its just this eating disorder is the only thing thats been constant in my life for these past 2...3 years. i just at this point dont want to give it up. but another part of me wants recovery so bad. (well, duh.... or else i wouldnt be posting here)<br><br><br><br>
anyway, i think i am going back, either to partial or inpatient (the inpatient if i decide to not go back to partial in the next couple weeks)... who knows. i hate it it there, i hate it here, so where do i go? i'm just hoping for the best.<br><br><br><br>
ps ed hahahahaha erectile dysfunction
 

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Oh, ok, now I understand. Sorry about my other post.<br><br>
You are working through this, and you will come through it. All the best, be brave, and NEVER EVER think of yourself as a failure, because you are not. Nobody should ever think that.<img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="/images/smilies/hug.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title=":hug:">
 
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