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Can you? I've thought I've been cured a handful of times now, and it always comes back to bite me in the butt.<br><br><br><br>
And seriously, I need some sense talked into me right now. >.> I went to our first vegetarian society potluck tonight, ate more than I was comfortable with, and discovered that Cool Whip- which I didn't eat but which could've been touching my pie, since I picked around it- contains dairy. So not only am I uncomfortable full and feeling disgusting, I also might have consumed dairy for the first time in... a year? YUCK. But to add to that, I think what I've been eating lately is too many calories (... I'm counting agin, a bit :/) and I can't sort out how much I ought to be eating. I can't lose anymore weight and get all sorts of problems back, but I can't help it either! And COOL WHIP, folks. I feel so gross- and it's so stupid!<br><br><br><br>
Please talk some sense into me? I'm stressed out, sick, and frightened. And viciously want to purge, but I'm not falling into that big of a rut.
 

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i would assume it is like drug addiction or alcoholism... you can never be "cured" but you are in recovery the rest of your life.<br><br><br><br>
one day at a time. <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="/images/smilies/smiley.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title=":)">
 

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No I do not think so but what the hell do I know I have never been in the least bit OK, I think I am then as soon as I relize hey I'm doing OK for some reason it starts all over.<br><br>
Then the bingeing starts and the vomiting.<br><br>
SO to try and control that I go to 400 calories a day and under 20 carbs but that only makes me binge worse and I do not know how you stop it.<br><br><br><br>
I dunno I have heard people can stop but I do not know how.
 

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Yes you can recover 100%. Of course you can. I firmly believe that.<br><br><br><br>
I know it because after 15 years of it, I am almost there.<br><br><br><br>
Truely recovering is about taking on and defeating again and again the bully in our heads that tells us that we can't eat, look fat, etc.<br><br><br><br>
I am guessing that right now there is a voice in your head attacking you for eating tonight, "how could you eat that! You should have known it had dairy in! You are disgusting" etc, etc.<br><br><br><br>
You have to tell that voice that it is talking crap and you aren't going to listen to it anymore. Tell it the truth back. When it says "you should have known it had dairy in" - you tell it you couldn't possibly have known it had dairy in it. When it tells you are eating too much, be honest - tell it that you are eating a healthy ammount of callories per day and that you WILL NOT lower that number.<br><br><br><br>
Get angry with it. Scream and shout at it. But DONT LISTEN to it. Its the ED talking. And it is telling you lies.<br><br><br><br>
Mine still pops up from time to time, especially when I am feeling vulnerable or down - it sees those times as a way to get back in cotrol of me. From nowhere I will hear this viscious and cruel voice in my head calling me fat, ugly, worthless, unloveable etc. But I know its a load of crap - I look fine. And besides, people who are going to judge me for how are look aren't the kind of people I want to know.<br><br><br><br>
Stay strong.
 

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Nutella: I don't believe in 100%, but I'm pretty sure Keelin and others can overcome it. There might be relapses, but the longer you try the better it gets. After 15 years chances to relapse dwindle. Congratulations! I hope that your your experience will be an inspiration to others.
 

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i would assume it is like drug addiction or alcoholism... you can never be "cured" but you are in recovery the rest of your life.<br><br><br><br>
one day at a time. <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="/images/smilies/smiley.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title=":)"></div>
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i'd agree with this, just from my experience. in the grand scheme of things (like compared to nutella's story), i suppose 2 years isn't a whole lot of time. can't say for sure it'll never come back to bite me in the ass. but most of the time, i'm just fine <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="/images/smilies/smiley.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title=":)">
 

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I believe you can.<br><br><br><br>
For me, elements of it do still bite me in the ass, but I'm better at sorting through it all, better at being reasonable when those incredibly unreasonable thoughts start pounding through my head. I am nearly a year out of treatment, and while there are still difficulties at times, it is NOTHING like it was this time last year, and I have complete faith that i continue to get better at this life business.<br><br><br><br>
keep the fight, girlie. hard work: pays off. <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="/images/smilies/smiley.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title=":)">
 

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If nothing else, I'm getting better at tricking it. >.><br><br><br><br>
I was freaking out at lunch today because I <i>could not</i>, for the life of me, eat a grain product. Couldn't.<br><br><br><br>
So I ate a big handful of cashews instead. Ha.
 
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