So, I'm really ashamed of myself. I'd done really well for the last month being vegan, and today I caved and ate cheese pizza and milk chocolate! <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="/images/smilies/sad.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title=""> I've really been struggling and depressed lately (even have had suicidal thoughts) because of some family issues. So today I just was really self-destructive by eating what I knew would upset me. Maybe I thought eating something that tasted good would make me feel better, too. But, not only did it hurt myself, but the animals, too! I hate thinking of stealing the milk from the baby cows and doing things so against my values and the image of myself that I want. I don't want my emotions to come into play. It shouldn't be about me and how I'm feeling in a given day. Even if my life sucks and the world is cruel to me, it doesn't mean that I should be cruel, too! Anyway, I'm determined that this is just a one day set-back & that I'm going to get back on track again. I really want to be a full-time vegan! I need to come on here for more support and to keep motivated. Knowing there are vegans out there really helps.