This is really upsetting me and I need some non-judgemental advice. Please!
I was a vegan for a little over two years when I decided I want to try cheese and eggs again. I was having really nagging cravings and I was feeling really fed up with the "holier than thou" vegans on other forums and communities. I went back to lacto-ovo for a few months and then decided to go back to veganism. This was in the summer when I "quit" and I tried to go back to vegan in late Novemember.
But since then I'm finding it absolutely difficult to stay vegan. I've flip flopped a lot since November and I hate myself so much for it. I moved to a new province and live with my boyfriend's family now. Unlike living at home, living here really sucks for veganism. I thought Toronto would be a vegan heaven but where I live, there's barely any vegan goodies at local supermarkets (I need more than soy mik, I want cookies, waffles, soyurt, faux meats, etc). I have to travel for a while on the bus to get to an overpriced health food store. I'm really poor and even had to use spare change from around the house to by my necessary medication yesterday.
I can't afford hoity toity health food store prices. And no one in this house is supportive of veganism. They have no idea what it is, actually (they are from Sri Lanka originally and veganism is unheard of). I have not met any other true veg*ns since moving here, either. A lot of pescatarians and "sometimes" vegetarians or religious Hindu veggies (who really aren't that strict a lot of the time, tbh) but not anyone who is veg*n for animal rights.
I feel so bad and guilty. I really need advice. I really need to reaffirm my vegan beliefs. I just feel myself not feeling as gung-ho about it all anymore, like I how I used to feel. How can stick to veganism? My boyfriend thinks this is funny and encourages me to eat animal products. He'll make my favourite non-vegan foods and tempt me by shoving it in my face and saying silly things like, "Just once won't hurt."