I already have nightmares a few times a week, wake up every few hours every night for some reason, and I've started to stutter again which I haven't done since I was little.
But perhaps try looking for other work?
When employment starts to cause harm to yourself for nothing but a paycheck, it might be a sign to move on.
I can empathize with your situation, as I've had an axiety attack of sorts while working at Walmart - to the point my nose started bleeding. Suffice it to say, leaving there was incredibly beneficial.
I know the job market is a pain to deal with, and jobs themselves are a pain, but keep looking.
Hope it improves, I'll keep you in prayer.
I agree with what everyone else says here about seeing someone. Waking throughout the night and disturbed sleep in general is a classic symptom of depression. Depression and anxiety go hand in hand a lot of the time too.
I hope things work out, let us know how you're getting on.
I know you need money, but your job seems to be causing you a lot more harm than it's worth. Is there a way your boss could put you just on front cash or somewhere you are not preparing dead animal?
If not, maybe it's time to look for a different job that you can feel better about.
Seeing a professional for the panic is a good idea. I opted out of anti depressants, but found that cognitive therepy worked really well, as well as meditation. Whatever you need to feel better.
Hang in there.
Some days I feel like I might have made a small difference and others are like I am the only sane person in a house of Nutters.
I need to finish college 0.0
Thank you guys for this site and all your support.
Oh Hebecarrot, this made me spit out my drink I laughed so hard!!
What a terrible job!! Please, I know you are trying to get through college, but for your sanity, as others have suggested, can you start applying at other places maybe? This is really a strain on you, I so understand, but it sounds like you need work that doesn't contradict your moral values!!
Does your college have a career center maybe you could talk to (or job posting board)?
Good luck in finding somthing other than this, YOU WILL!
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I work at Wendy's because they hired me and my sister on the spot and could work around our old school schedule. Now that we don't attend college I have all day to work so instead of suffering from nightmares and panic attacks I'm going to try and get another job. I'm thinking a Bookstore is more my avenue or maybe a hostess? I have two days off and I am going to concentrate on getting some interviews set up soon.