After switching over to a mostly vegan diet, I have to say that my craving for binging has stopped, at least in frequency, as it used to be an almost daily thing, whereas in the past 2 weeks I've only had the desire appear only once. I do believe it is because I have cut out all refined sugar and grains, though, because I've come to find that these foods kick in my need to overeat.
However, two nights ago I went out with some friends and gave in... I had bread pudding and ice cream for desert, refined sugar and flour heaven! Now the interesting thing is this. Since I had made the change to not eat dairy anymore or any refined products, eating that desert was BAD!!! I mean BAD!!! Lots of self-deprecating going on in my self-talk, but it's lightening up some, I'm making an effort to talk nicer to myself when I hear it going on.
So for the last two days I have been fighting to urge to binge. It is probably both mental and physical. I have had these desires to go out and eat whatever the heck I want, including all the foods I gave up. I thought about ordering my favorite, pepperoni pan pizza from pizza hut. I'm realizing it's because I'm thinking, "I screwed up, so I may as well screw up really good!" Like an all-or-nothing kind of attitude. Since I had that desert, I may as well tag on any other thing I have been wanting to do in my eating patterns right now while the time is there. Here's my chance to have a real fest! But these desires are lessening after two days now and I'm feeling more normal.
I have only been mostly vegan for about 2 weeks now. So I'm trying to tell myself, so what. You're transitioning. When it comes to diet, I have a hard time with the grey areas. I don't want to say "I'm transitioning" and use that as an excuse to give in when I want to eat something that is not good for me. It's like, if I have one candy bar, before I know it, I'll be eating one a day. So I've found to stay away from them is best. But I don't want to self-deprecate, either.
And I have to say, also, that one of the most frustrating things about this change is going to other people's houses for dinner, food that gets put out at work or potlucks, and going out to eat. When I can stay in my little bubble, buy the foods I want to eat, prepare them, eat them at my house, I'm fine. But boy, I feel so deprived when I go into a restaurant, read the whole menu, and realize the only thing that is on the menu in my new way of eating is either a garden salad or mint tea! I do live in an area that doesn't have alot of alternative menu items, either, which makes it difficult. The last time someone said that I said, "Let me make you dinner." And one night the menu was so bad, I literally did order just mint tea and ate at home.
So I'm curious to hear what other people's binge stories are, if you have noticed any "triggers" for you and what you do for them. I'm not looking for advice, just your experience. So far, I'm finding that total abstinence from certain foods, healthy, loving self-talk and "faking out my brain" to work (by making foods that look like what I want though they may not taste the same). Thanks!