Welcome back, VK
Please don't be too hard on yourself. You know that EDs have nothing to do with being stupid. You're very intelligent, you know that
At some point you will get recovery right. But I don't think it will be easy, and you've really have to be committed to the idea of letting go. Now that you're back together with Stephen I hope that you can focus on getting better again
to the rest of the ETL crowd.
It's been a while since I last posted, and I'm sorry I haven't been around much lately to reply to reply to posts.
Welcome back to Linzey (it's been a while!) and welcome to newbies Gabbles and HillaryLane.
It's funny, Gabbles, you actually remind me a lot of the character Amber from Buffy. A gentle soul.
Hello to the oldies too. Thanks ND & Charity, for being so helpful!
Theres not a whole lot going on with me these days food & weight-wise. I weighted myself this morning (a thing I only do very rarely), and Im at the same weight that I was in the beginning of December. A weight that, admittedly, shocked me because it was a lot higher than I had assumed it would be. But Im coming to terms with that. I keep reminding myself that Im at a healthy weight even if the number seems very high to me.
As for my health in general- a little more than a month ago some weird things happened to my heart. Irregular/slow/racing pulse, chest pains, palpitations etc. I finally went to see my doctor (after a scary few days), had an ECG done and blood samples taken, but everything seemed normal. Well it lasted a week, then I felt fine again, so I though I was ok after all, but then right after Christmas I started having problems again. So I called my doctor who will now refer my to a heart specialist, -Ill receive a letter from him/her soon, telling me when my appointment is.
Since last Thursday Ive only experienced problems 2-3 times, last time on Sunday, so right now Im fine. Hopefully itll last.
Apart from that Im going back to the University soon, this semester Ill be taking two courses (both literature!) that Im looking forward to a lot, although its a bit scary because its now at a more advanced level than its been so far.
Take care, all of you.