Sorry everyone, you dont have to read this but I think all my friends are getting sick of my boy troubles and I just want to talk to someone about my pathetic little problem!
Basically, I liked this boy for a while. He's in the boys house at school thats next to my house so the two houses do a lot of things together. He's in the year below although is a year older than me (he's 18).
We got together at the charity ball, and spent most of the night dancing and kissing. Same the next night (although without the dancing!) and the next, but kind of drifted apart again after that, and went back to bieng friends. I was pretty upset. My best friend spoke to him (they are both smokers, and all the smokers at school know each other pretty well) and he said that I wasn't forward enough and he didn't want to make the first move all the time. Fair enough, I suppose. There is a fine line between forward and clingy though, so I didnt want to be wrapped round him all the time. My last boyfriend was so clingy, I would actually hide in my room to stay away from him. He actually once grabbed me and pinned me against the wall in the tv. room which is why I dumped him. So I didn't want to be like that! I was pretty depressed for a while but then decided I would just speak to him to see if I still had a chance. He said, he didn't know what happened between us and he still really liked me, so we got together again.
We have been now going out for a week. I am going home (I'm a boarding school) tommorow morning at 5am for the october break so I wont see him again for 10 days. We kissed goodnight, and he asked me to email him "if you want" but he didn't seem to care that much. He seemed to be more upset to say goodbye to my friend.
And we were looking at pictures on his laptop, and there were some of him with some really fit girls. posing a lot with one in particular. He quickly clicked past them but I still saw, and now I feel that i'm not good enough. I am no way as pretty as those girls.
Yeah I know I am bieng stupid and pathetic, but I'm sure he likes my friend more than me and its really upset me.
And any tips on how to be more forward, and a generally better girlfriend? This has been the first boyfriend who after a week I still genuinely like and I dont want to get dumped!!!