ex killed my pet.
I had thought I was already part of this forum, though I just hadn't logged on in like a year, but apparently I'm wrong.
I wanted to join to share something bad that happened early 2010. I am posting on a vegetarin/vegan forum as I know you guys are caring and compassionate like me, and will feel my pain. Don't have anyone to talk to, so wanted to vent to caring people like you guys. Im a vegetarian as well and im a very very huge animal lover. I'm the kind of person who has to even save things like bugs, and get sad when they die too. I have tried to go vegan off and on, but with having a food addiction, I can honestly say it is really hard for me to stick to it.
Well to get oa the point of this post, ....back in 2010 I was still with my first boyfriend, unfortunately. (This has to do with pets, I promise.) He was just really terrible, and I didn't have respect for myself to leave, and I was scared of change. He treated me bad since the beginning. Was a pathological liar, basically told me I was worthless because 'oh everyone and everything is worthless.' And he meant it. He would hang out with girls without letting me know and without letting me come along... And just so much. Eventually he became physically abusive and verbally abusive. I mean, so many red flags. So many. He was addicted to porn. He had a folder saved of photos from 4chan, which was suppose to be a collection of funny photos but no. He saved a brutal video of a snapping turtle ripping apart a mouse and .... you could see the mouse trying to swim for his life while you could see the bottom part of his body was ripped off and you could see his ribs..... sorry for sharing this, it's hard for me to even say it. He even had a photo saved of this woman who was cut up into little pieces and then her body parts were put in a row... it was horrible. Looking back at all this stuff, I don't understand why I stayed. Who stays with a man like this? Well he isn't a man, he's a boy.
Well..... one night, a few months after I lost my first pet named Dusty... He was a dwarf hamster... ... He decides to get drunk, and then becomes verbally abusive violently.... like getting in my face telling me to kill myself. And then tells me how he killed Dusty. He suffocated him with one of the drinking glasses we had. He did this because he was jealous of Dusty because he said I was spending too much time with him, and then also said that he didn't want Dusty to suffer anymore cause he had been really sick with respiratory issues.. He was being treated and hadn't been getting better, though not getting worse. He was wheezing. Whether he didn't want him to suffer, it's still cruel he did that. He had no right taking his life......
After finding this out, I knew I should leave him, but still didn't because I was so scared of change and like I said, didn't he respect for myself. So I lied to myself a to try and make myself forget it happened. Bad idea. Not healthy. Also, I had such regret and felt like Dusty would not forgive me for staying with him. I wish I called the cops when he told me this. I so wish I did. He deserves to be in jail. He is a socialpath. He is a creep.
Thankfully we ended up breaking up over a year later, but only because he cheated on me and left me for her. I wish I had been th e one to leave him.
But I thankfully I eventually found a man the year after who not only treated me amazingly well, but also had a love for animals and was a vegetarian, and showed me what it was like to truly be loved by someone.
I just looked up my first ex (the one who killed dusty) on the internet and I saw him on YouTube with a cat video totaling over 2 million views. I just started balling cAuse I wish people knew who he really was. And I wish he had a really horrible life but from what I see, he doesn't. I want him to suffer and to be miserable... but does karma even exist? He shouldn't be owning pets. It just hurts seeing that he is liked, but that no one knows who he really is. He deserves hell. Full on hell for all of eternity.
I have no feelings for him and have not had any for him for a very long time. I stopped having feelings for him since before I got with my current man ( well ex now, but I know we are getting back together. We just need some time... I caused too many issues due to all the past hurt I have been through, and that wasn't fair to him... He never did anything except be there for me and love me) But it just hurts to see someone who is so evil having a good life and being liked. I want to tear him down, I want people to know who he is, I want to ruin his life.
Also, just to mention, he was also once abusive with my pet hamster Hammy. He threw something at her cage while she was in it once... This was years ago.. like 2009. After that, she didn't like him, you could tell. She was very smart. He was holding her once after that and out of no where she bit his nipple. He was wearing a shirt, but she decided out of no where to bite him. I loved it. She never bit before that.
Sorry for writing this. If it doesn't make sense, I am sorry. I was just really mad and upset and was wanting to vent about it. Sorry if it was stupid to post.
I just hope karma does exist and that he burns. I wish I could go back in the past and put him in jail.
Last edited by RubyRue; 06-29-2015 at 12:21 AM.