Hey. Sorry to hear that you are struggling, but I think the fact that you recognize that you are not acting is a huge step. I think a lot of people, especially those suffering from mental illness, don't even recognize when they are not being themselves. My boyfriend of 2 years, and my sister's fiance both have bipolar of varying degrees. Luckily my boyfriend also notices when he is getting in one of his angry or sad moods, and he tends to just keep to himself until the moment subsides. But it sounds like this has been getting worse since being on your medication, right? If that is the case then I would definitely talk with your doctor about decreases or increasing doses or swtiching medications. The science/art of balancing medications can be really difficult and doctors rarely get it right the first time since everyone's bodies are just so different. I started Effexor about a month ago and was having some really bad side effects of increased anxiety and irritability, so I decreased my dose to half, which has been making me feel a whole lot better. I would just talk with your doctor about what was going on, and when you notice your anger episodes, just try and keep to yourself. I wish you luck and hope you gets things figured out.