I just registered on VB
, primarily to get some help/advice because I don't know what to do and am starting to consider getting some animal products back into my diet.... Please be kind and do not judge me, I'm really, really struggling a lot.
I'm currently 25. From 18 to 20 I was mainly flexitarian, I became vegetarian as soon as I got to cook my own meals. After six months of vegetarianism I got convinced by the ethics of veganism and enthusiastically jumped into it. This time was hard because I had issues with my studies and was generally depressed and bulimic. I gained 20 pounds as a result of it plus taking the pill for my PCOS (I'll come back to this later). I reverted to vegetarianism for convenience during some weeks I spent abroad in Romania, and when I got back I decided to get my health back and stumbled into raw veganism and fruitarianism. I lasted only five weeks and I think it's a good thing, raw veganism would have destroyed me after some time.
Since that time (3 years ago), I'm constantly trying to stick to veganism, with some omnivorous relapses when I feel too much fatigued.
As for my health background, I've been diagnosed with PCOS at 20. I'm not overweight but could afford to lose some pounds I gained with bulimia and the pill. There was a period when doctors thought I also had fibromyalgia, but it turned out to be posture problems (my jaws have been operated in 2012) leading to the inability to do intense movements - I'm working on those. I'm also very tired, I need to sleep a lot although I never was a big sleeper. I feel my nervous system is completely down, last years have been tough (studies...), I don't sleep well (partly because of the neighbour upstairs), I'm generally happy but frustrated with my current job and city. I 'm also tired of constantly wondering if I'll be able to stay vegan or not. Oh, and my teeth are kind of slowly but surely decaying. These last weeks, I also got migraines almost every day.
My bloodwork is fine - thyroid great, no anemia, no blood sugar issues. I've even been tested - negatively - for lupus, Epstein-Barr, Lyme disease... My menstrual cycles are kind of messed up because of PCOS. When I stopped taking the pill I had amenorrhea for two years straight, now my ovaries seem to start working again with acupuncture and phytotherapy.
Let me be clear : I don't blame all this on veganism. My problem is, I'm not sure it's a good thing to be a vegan with all these problems. My acupuncturist is very kind and respectful, but he clearly stated it's not according to Chinese medicine. Now, I know a lot of people think this is bull****, but I don't (I've seen it working many times) - and arguing about it is not the point of this topic. I've done lots of research online, and it seems there are definitely some people who did everything right and still failed to thrive as vegans.
I'm not a junk food vegan, I eat lots of whole grains, legumes, vegetables, fruits, spices... I take my B12 supplement religiously, along with spirulina, magnesium and other B vitamins. The magnesium seems to help with my fatigue.
Every time I started eating some animal products again, I felt better during a few days. I don't know why. My digestion, which isn't usually good, is far better with meat, fish or eggs (again, according to Chinese medicine teachings, it totally makes sense...
These last few weeks I've had trouble eating well and enough. Everything "healthy" disgusts me, I can eat cakes or chocolate, bread and fruits also, but I must forcefeed myself for everything else. Everything makes me bloat, like a lot, and I rapidly feel nauseous when eating.
I'm sorry for the long rant but I need to speak about these problems, I don't feel like I'm 25 at all. I have a healthier lifestyle than most people around me, yet I'm the most tired and unhealthy. I'm fed up physically and psychologically, and I just long for things to be simple, easy. From what I remember, the diet I ate that most suited me was a vegetarian/flexitarian pattern, with no gluten, no added sugar and no dairy (apart from some fresh goat cheese, but not on a daily basis) - I lost a lot a weight while eating like this, and I was following the advice of my acupuncturist.
I don't want to go back - again ! - to vegetarianism or, worst, omnivorism. But I can't live like that forever, either. I try to eat enough, but my digestive system isn't happy with the quantities I must eat to do so. I know that animal products pack a lot more calories and nutrients in smaller portions... and I digest them really, really well.
Again, sorry for the length of this message, I realize it sounds kind of confuse but eh... this mess is my head right now. If anyone has had the same problems, or knows about a possible solution, I'd be really glad to hear about it.
[English mistakes not intended, I'm French]