Someone please shoot me!
Lately I feel so on edge, so angry and just completely stressed out!! I haven't been able to sleep, I am constantly dwelling on every little thing, and I feel like I want to kill someone.
I haven't had a holiday from work since I started there over a year, the most time off I've had is 4 days back in the spring. They are constantly overbooking me at work, I'm basically doing the job of three people! Last week I was responsible for 50 animals!! 50!! This week, it's "only" 30.
Today I got yelled at for nothing. The doctor was in a pissy mood and decided that the way I've been doing something for over a year is suddenly the wrong way to do it.
My mom is having a breakdown or something over her divorce from my dad, so I have to deal with psychotic, hysterical, incoherant phone calls from her every second day. She tries to make me feel guilty for everything wrong in her life. And she has started making up stories about my dad, and the scary thing is, I think she actually believes them.
I just can't take it anymore. I feel like I'm going to explode!! I can't relax no matter how hard I try. I don't know whether I want to scream or cry or laugh. I'm having really weird thoughts about hurting people or myself. I feel like I'm so invisible and no one gives a damn about me, except when if they want someone to yell at.
I've tried asking for time off work to recharge, but they can't give me any right now, because we are understaffed. And I can't really afford to take time off, because I have to pay the bills.
I don't even know why I'm posting this, I just had to vent.