i have fears, insecurities about general things in life. . .including my appearance. I mean, sure, i look fine (there are pictures up on the web site now--ouryogastudio.com), but i'm not "normal" in many ways, i guess not "improved" with tans/tanning cream, hair dye (should be blonder right?), i don't wear make up, etc. It may affect my job. it may not. i can't figure it.
anyway, truth is, i'm concerned about going back to where i was a few years ago, overweight with my health problem. But, i also know what it takes to stay in shape, and what it takes to stay in shape mentally. sometimes, it is harder than other times, but i try to stick to what i know. and other times, i just give in and learn from that experience too. i try not to be too strict either way.
but, fear is just a thing. eventually it works out or is transformed into the faith that, if it does happen again, i can always start over and get back to where i want to be; or i have the fortitude and resiliance to work through this fear and it's not going to happen again. Sometimes, the best thing is just positive thinking and reinforcement--which may involve literally talking to yourself about what a great job you're doing, how you're going to continue doing it because it makes you happy and healthy.