i'm the same way. even if something smells good, all i have to do is picture the texture and taste of it and i want to gag. most of the time it's just the seasonings that smell good not the meat, and it tricks my brain into thinking i want meat for a split second. one day i got thinking about thanksgiving dinners and how much i used to like turkey and the smell of it cooking all day, then i realized it was just the sage and other herbs i was smelling all those years, so i use those same herbs on potatoes instead
what i find wierd is that the other night we were watching CSI and they showed this killer cutting off the finger of his victim, and you could hear the knife going through the flesh and the bone, and my bf and roommate, both omni, shuddered at the sight and looked like they felt ill. i'm sorry but that's how i feel at the thought of someone cutting into the flesh of any other creature, so i don't see how they can freak out of that and then eat a pork chop. to me it's the same thing, i don't think i could even cut into a piece of meat let alone eat it at this point.
I'm singin' here to get rid of fear
Hope it disappears right here with the rain
But I know life is pain, not like a fairytale
Meaningless to pray, so just goin' on my way