Some of you have made very valid points like, I need to understand and respect other people's views and beliefs, the whole world isn't going to go veg overnight but are potential candidates for change, other people do have wonderful qualities that I love them for, and that I don't like it when I get harassed for my diet and omni's don't like it either... and you're all completely correct. I *usually* understand all this and don't act this way. Sometimes, it's just tough to keep it in perspective.
It's weird how completely overwhelmed by it all I feel right now. We went to my parents for make-your-own-pizza last night and, no joke, my brother walks in and within maybe 3 minutes he took a jab at the food my mother had set out so I could have vegan pizza. (Which BTW rocked his socks when he ate some later). I just grabbed my Husband's hand and squeezed it, and he squeezed it back so I wouldn't say anything cause he knew I was on the verge of explosion.
The guy from the camping trip is coming over today to hang out. I'm glad because it will give me a chance to apologize. (Spirittap, I said *I* wanted to apologize- not that I thought he should. He was fine, I was terrible). "Anger doesn't usually fuel change." I get this and that's why it's a problem right now.
I've spent years developing articulate, polite responses to everything well-intentioned (or not) meat-eaters say or ask with regards to my vegetarianism. Lately, I've just been spitting out whatever I feel like and forgoing these socially acceptable auto-responses.
One last thing, Kazyeeqan, thank you. As for my friend, she totally right, I've been an "angry vegetarian" lately. She's terrific and would never make me feel bad about just talking about vegetarianism but will call me out when I'm being vicious. And oh, I was vicious in target last week. She bought this ginormous leather couch, that I will not sit on, and I kinda let her have it. I then went on to explain what she could do instead of "eating a steak to make herself feel better". It was totally uncalled for the way I did it. It really is good to know that I'm not alone feeling like this.
Thanks to all of you for understanding and talking me down. If I can get through the super bowl party we're having, then I'm staying home and avoiding eating situations for awhile.