i'm in a little bit of a bind here guys.
i have been vegetarian for almost five years now, and have not been eating flesh, meat, fish, or things containing broth or lard in them the whole time. i have however been eating gelatin, and other minor ingredients in foods for the past five years.
although i have known about the horrors and inhumane acts that take place in the dairy industry for years, it is really just sice i came to veggieboards that i have considered going vegan very seriously.
there's only a few problems with that...
1. my family and i do not have the extra grocery money each week to pay for additional vegan expenses such as soy milk and vegan treats such as icecream or cakes. my father is a stone-cold omni, and does not have the money to contribute to groceries to allow me to purchase the things i need on top of his milk and meat. we're doing fine for food with me as a vegetarian, but i'm afraid that if i go vegan we will not have the expenses to keep my diet healthy and lactose free.
2. i can be somewhat of a perfectionist. i feel that if i take the step to go vegan, than i have to eliminate facial products, shampoos, and other household items from my everyday life as well. although i want to do this very badly, again, i feel that the increase in price for animal friendly products may be a problem for my families budget. also, i have seen how many aspiring vegan/vegetarians react when they find out that they have been supporting cruel companies or ingesting non-veg*an-friendly foods. i know that i will feel the same guilt and sense of contamination if that should happen to me once i go vegan, and i don't want to go through that. it happened to me once before (when i had only been veg for about 6 months), and i recall the guilt and disgust that i felt, and i am even more serious about my vegetarian beliefs now than i was then.
basically, i feel that if i take the step that feels right to me (which is to go vegan), than it's "all or nothing" ; 100% or not at all.
is this normal? has anyone else ever been in such a predicament?