Hi! I'm 13 and I recently went vegan (by the way, please let me know if this is the wrong category, I didn't know which one to post in). I pretty much just went vegan over night when I realized how badly animals are treated in this world and I do Not want to be part of it at all. This is pretty tough though, because my family is def. not vegan, in fact they eat and use animal products Every Single Day. I don't feel like a "real" vegan since I have to use schampoo, soap etc which either does animal testing or contains animal ingredients. I even stopped using all my makeup since it's not cruelty-free.
My mom supports me I guess, but she still asks if eating "a little bit of that yoghurt" or "a piece of chicken" is really gonna kill me. Maybe it won't on the outside if it happens once, but it certainly will kill me on the inside. If I were to consume something non-vegan I would just cry for days and not forgive myself.
I turned vegan about a month ago, and my parents are separated and I live mostly with my mom so my dad doesn't know. He would probably be all like "nooo, you can't live like dat dat's just stupid blabla protein blabla" so I'm afraid to tell him.
I've been to a dietician and she said it was all fine as long as I also consumed soymilk, soyghurt, tofu and all kinds of soy foods. However, now my mom thinks I have to eat soy every single day and so she buys me all these products and I have to eat it and smile or else she won't let me be vegan since she would think that it doesn't work without them. All this soy can't be good, right? I mean you hear about how bad soy is everywhere and that just scares me a lot.
Also, I Do have products that aren't really vegan (clothes, bags and just random stuff), should I feel Very guilty about wearing them? I've found vegan clothes online but either they don't ship to my country (Sweden) or either they are Extremely expensive, often both. I don't have much money since I'm only 13, neither does my family and so I simply cannot afford them. That sucks since I want to help animals so badly but I feel like such a failure and I don't even feel like I'm allowed to call myself a vegan. I only do since that at least lets people know that I don't eat anything from animals, from what I know that's the only word that describes it. What should I do about this? Sorry for this very long post but I just really need help from others who understands me, I don't know a single vegan or vegetarian in real life. Thank you!