A little over 2 years ago my father was diagnosed as terminally ill (ie COPD, fibrosis of the lungs, and emphysema)
He was a terrible father. He manipulated me as a small child to hate my mother and behave badly in school. I didn't start having a healthy relationship with my mom until I was 16. He moved to AZ when I was 8; said it was my mom's fault. Was emotionally and physically abusive to my only fully biological brother. He found out he had 2 illegitimate sons much older than me, and goes out of his way to see them. He has seen me once in 10 years. He still denies all of his wrong doings and blames my mother.
How sad should I be that he's dying? Is it wrong that I don't feel very upset?