Ah crap. Ah balls. Forgive the rant, ok? Thankyou so much. But I've woken up and my patience and hope has dissolved a bit. Plus I'm not sure what to do...
I've posted in 'Women's Health' so many times and then was so darn chuffed that I had a regular and fairly painless cycle for the first time in...ever. Sure, it was 47 days long but it was predictable and involved ovulation and no crazy PMS and no night sweats and...all things.
And I know cycles fluctuate. I do. But finding myself 4 days late with an already long cycle means it's over 50 days. And just as I took regularity (and a scan showing happy follicles and thickness and stuff) as a sign of health, I'm taking this as the reverse.
I got the flu partway through so perhaps that impacted but somewhere inside me I 'know' that's not the case because 47 days, regular or not, already felt a bit dysfunctional.
So here I am. Technically trying to conceive with a partner who's away every second month and the longest bloody Dpun intended) cycle ever has tested the acceptance (when he's away it means another 47 days til we're even in with a shot) but it felt like I was getting somewhere and now...
nothing.
I'm 31. It's not a good time to lose periods.
And most distressingly, I don't know why I have. The only thing I've done differently is gone back to veganism rather than eating small amounts of fish every 2 days or so (long story. And I definitely don't want to anymore and have been so happy to return to this). I guess it's that. But I refuse to believe that tiny amount of fish (a few slices of sashimi, really. Barely anything) made a difference?
I've SLIGHTLY upped my soy intake. So slightly. Due to an extra day at work (and them having soy not other milks at the cafe). One glass a week more than the odd glass I was otherwise having.
So basically... no reason for this.
Sorry about the long post.
Trying to get it out of system before partner gets up and the bummed-outness that has been growing over the last few days takes me over.
My current approach is to keep the fish out. And assume it's as simple as gain a few kilos. Tragically, dairy fat seems to help so I guess I'll eat that too.
Otherwise, I feel better than I ever have.
So it's really just the 'ttc' bit, I guess.
I never thought I'd be one of those women but golly, I am. Officially. I burst into tears at a zebra crossing the other day realising that the mothers walking their kids to school might never be me. :crying:
Anyway... thanks for letting me plop this here. I was liking feeling normal and healthy (but working on being more so. Veganism and at least vegetarianism has only ever helped with that and I tend to get lighter when I consume fish!) and now feel completely crappy.
The end.
(Seriously. What is in a few slices of fish?! I take Omega 3. I take b12. I take iron. I eat about 65g protein a day and am small. I'm sleeping heaps and didn't until this year. WHAT THE EFF.)
I've posted in 'Women's Health' so many times and then was so darn chuffed that I had a regular and fairly painless cycle for the first time in...ever. Sure, it was 47 days long but it was predictable and involved ovulation and no crazy PMS and no night sweats and...all things.
And I know cycles fluctuate. I do. But finding myself 4 days late with an already long cycle means it's over 50 days. And just as I took regularity (and a scan showing happy follicles and thickness and stuff) as a sign of health, I'm taking this as the reverse.
I got the flu partway through so perhaps that impacted but somewhere inside me I 'know' that's not the case because 47 days, regular or not, already felt a bit dysfunctional.
So here I am. Technically trying to conceive with a partner who's away every second month and the longest bloody Dpun intended) cycle ever has tested the acceptance (when he's away it means another 47 days til we're even in with a shot) but it felt like I was getting somewhere and now...
nothing.
I'm 31. It's not a good time to lose periods.
And most distressingly, I don't know why I have. The only thing I've done differently is gone back to veganism rather than eating small amounts of fish every 2 days or so (long story. And I definitely don't want to anymore and have been so happy to return to this). I guess it's that. But I refuse to believe that tiny amount of fish (a few slices of sashimi, really. Barely anything) made a difference?
I've SLIGHTLY upped my soy intake. So slightly. Due to an extra day at work (and them having soy not other milks at the cafe). One glass a week more than the odd glass I was otherwise having.
So basically... no reason for this.
Sorry about the long post.
Trying to get it out of system before partner gets up and the bummed-outness that has been growing over the last few days takes me over.
My current approach is to keep the fish out. And assume it's as simple as gain a few kilos. Tragically, dairy fat seems to help so I guess I'll eat that too.
Otherwise, I feel better than I ever have.
So it's really just the 'ttc' bit, I guess.
I never thought I'd be one of those women but golly, I am. Officially. I burst into tears at a zebra crossing the other day realising that the mothers walking their kids to school might never be me. :crying:
Anyway... thanks for letting me plop this here. I was liking feeling normal and healthy (but working on being more so. Veganism and at least vegetarianism has only ever helped with that and I tend to get lighter when I consume fish!) and now feel completely crappy.
The end.
(Seriously. What is in a few slices of fish?! I take Omega 3. I take b12. I take iron. I eat about 65g protein a day and am small. I'm sleeping heaps and didn't until this year. WHAT THE EFF.)