Are some people "supposed" to be single???
I'm asking myself that same question.
I'm single now, and I worry about my future.
Will I always be able to take care of myself for the rest of my life.
Is the sacrifice of living along worth it?
I'm 30 years old. I'm turning 31 next month.When I am single:
*I dream at night
*I daydream during the day, I keep a running "movie" in my head.
*I am a healthy weight
*I sleep soundly
*I laugh at movies and YouTube videos daily
*I laugh at my cats
*I have great conversations with blood-relatives several times a week.
*I have a healthy libido, and an "adult" collection that would make a sailor blush
*I am able to support myself financially, with just enough left over for a few fun things.
*I find simple things fun. I like reading, playing video games, hanging out online, listening to music (while daydreaming), I like trying new (and risky) recipes. I watch "kid's cartoons" like Phineas and Ferb, Spongebob, and Disney movies. (Edited to add: I watch plenty of normal adult movies, too. The point is that as a single person, I am free to watch anything I want...even the silly stuff)
*I truly believe that I am an attractive and intelligent person. And, I actually am attractive and intelligent. I'm good at what I do, and a lot of women my age are far worse off physically...for one reason or another.
*I like my job. I take pride in my work, and I see myself going places.
*I'm... happy.When I am in a relationship:
*I don't dream... or even daydream.
*I gain weight... A lot of weight, despite reducing calories.
*I don't seem to get a full nights sleep. The other person has needs.
*I don't laugh at things. I'll respond "That's funny" but not actually laugh.
*My pets become stressful. I worry about all the ways they annoy the other person, and taking care of then is a dreadful chore.
*I lose contact with other people I care about. I just don't feel like talking, and have no need for the contact. My Mom calls once a week to make sure I'm not dead. I lose friends.
*I lose interest in sex. I don't even "do it myself" anymore. Subscriptions get cancelled, and I dry up. Sex becomes a chore.
*There is never enough money to maintain any standard of living. I'm always making payment arrangements and eating super-cheap dinners like rice, noodles, and instant potatoes. I've returned groceries to buy gas for the car.
*I cry a lot. When any little thing goes wrong, I feel devastated and I cry. I hate crying, but I do it every other day.
*I don't seem to have time to do anything fun. If I watch any TV, it's from the kitchen, laundry room, or someplace other than the sofa. I always have to "catch-up" while single. I finally watched the fourth Harry Potter last week!!!
*I begin to see myself as an unattractive, unintelligent person. I feel grateful that someone...anyone is willing to be my boyfriend/girlfriend. I'll tolerate anything. I caught on ex-boyfriend in bed (naked) with another woman... I cried and begged him not to leave me.
*I hate my job. It's just not good enough, and not where I'm 'supposed to be' at this stage in my life.
*Over time, my opinions and my needs don't seem to matter anymore.
I'm half joking when I say...
If I do try a relationship again, I'd like to live in a duplex. One of those homes that's split in two... and meant to be rented out. That would be great! His and Hers!!! He/She could have a whole kitchen, bedroom, livingroom, electricity bill, water bill, refrigerator, trash collection, litterboxes, toilet, etc... Just get together for a bit of 'fun' and then "Back to your side of the house! I'll see you next weekend! Peace Out!!!"