Originally Posted by VenomousX
Does anyone else suffer from this (or the other) types ?
i was diagnosed with clinical depression aged 14, in 1994- with atypical features (all of those listed above, especially i suddenly put on a bunch of weight just before i first got diagnosed (thyroid tests always come back ok), i get really weepy, and when i'm really
unwell, just horribly numb and detached, i can't think straight, i get really restless legs, have super IBS and allergy issues, i'm generally exhausted much of the time, i can sleep for like 18 hours straight easy peasy, i am wicked sensitive to perceived rejection and used to get very paranoid, i have intrusive thoughts and mental images, i retreat under the duvet and wish i'd vanish from existance for the good of all mankind, can't muster up the motivation to get out of bed and eat/clean my teeth/wash my face, etc) ..... and seeing as it's 2010 now and i'm still
pretty flipping loopy when left to my own devices and running on unsupported brain chemistry, its considered major depressive disorder. go me!
in the past 16 years i've been on a bunch of different medications, been through assorted types of therapy, and just as importantly, i've learned a lot
- about myself, about my family dynamic and relationships, about the connection between thoughts, beliefs, and feelings, about doing things that scare me/i don't wanna do- because they improve things.... about all sorts of things.
i'm also very lucky to have a very supportive mum and bf, and sort of tollerant (but i think also somewhat bemused and perhaps dubious) dad and brothers. and two wonderful cats who manage to make me laugh when nothing else can, who are super affectionate even when i'm in a foul mood, and who rely on me to keep it together and look after them. those all help hugely.
i also recently got diagnosed with ADHD and medicated for that (i don't feel hyperactive physically- but i have about 7,003 thoughts at a time spinning about in my poor little mind
)- and everything seems to be coming together a lot better now than it has before- all i have to do now is get my crap together a bit more (hahahahaha- it looks so easy on the screen- i'll just nip off and do that this afternoon then shall i?
), and then remember to keep taking my medication
- even when i've been doing ok for some time and decide that i'm fine- cos whenever i come off it- even very slowly- i start to slip back downhill fast, and unfortunately when i'm heading southward i am not objective, rational or astute enough to see that i'm backsliding at some speed and need to ask for help, nor motivated and coherant enough to do so. it took me 6 years to clue in to that last time. i should maybe get 'keep taking the pills' tattooed backwards on my forehead, just incase.
i think it'd be really good if we could talk about things that have helped us and offer each other support in this thread. it can be quite easy- especially when you're already in a big rut- to focus on your label and find yourself almost embracing it and playing the role of miserable layabout (cos its a comfortable place to be when life is overwhelming- under the duvet with a tub of icecream), instead of working on actively moving forward- wading your way out of the bog and back onto dry land. it always seems like a mirage when you're in there upto your neck, but i feel we could probably benefit a lot from doing our damnedest to remember that a pretty good level of functionality and recovery is possible, and for the most part attainable- its just a case of finding what works and working with it- grabbing hold of whatever help you can, and taking a whole bunch of baby steps forward til we get to more solid ground.
for everyone who needs one.