No idea what forum this should go into... health? My job makes me feel sick. Relationships? Sort of...?
Anyway, what do you do when you loathe your job so much you can sleep and going to work makes you feel sick and depressed? What do you do to cope?
I swear, I've tried everything. I used to love this job, when I first took on this position it really was great. It was a demanding role, but it has lots of variety, a small tight knit team that worked together to support each other, good bonuses, good hours. Over the last few months they have restructured it to hell. Now it is boring, monotonous monkey work - the team is bigger so instead of a job with lots of variety, one person has the do the same thing over and over. We used to be able to swap our work around and help each other out but with restructuring we can't. I mean, seriously, we are flat out not allowed to help another team member out even if they are drowning and we are twiddling our thumbs. Instead of us all supporting each other we are now in pitted, daily competition with each other. Now, to get bonus (which is still good) we have to fight each other, instead of helping each other. My hours now officially suck.
To top it off, we now have a really stupid email system called Genesys, which feeds you your emails one at a time instead of the usual way of Outlook where you can go through and pick the most urgent. This is a newspaper I work for, so we have serious deadlines, too. For example, it is 9:50, deadline is at 10:00. There are 3 URGENT emails in there to be completed before 10, but I can't get to them. I have to do the 25 emails for next week first, really fast and frantically, before I can get to the emails I should have done at 10am. Instead of dealing with emails in order of urgency, you do them as first come first served (yes, even for spam) and the whole system just breaks if you do otherwise. No, seriously, this is how it works. (It's not me, everyone else hates the new system.)
I'm not the only one on the team who is utterly miserable. At least half the team are actively looking for new jobs, sick leave has skyrocketed, everyone looks miserable and unhappy at work, which makes everything so much worse. Because people are taking so much time off we all have way too much to do. That's the ONLY thing stopping me from calling in sick again tomorrow, I know my off-sider will be swamped if I do.
I just can't cope anymore. I hate my job now. I've brought it up with my supervisor, my manager, with HR, I've applied for another role in the company, I've been looking for outside work. I have got other job offers but for less pay, in hind sight I should have taken them. I'll get another job, I know, but I want to hang in there for the right one.
But how in hell do I cope in the mean time? I am miserable. Can I take stress leave? How do I go about doing that? What more do I have to do to hammer home to the company they are making my working life miserable?
It's 3:27am and I can't sleep because I have to go to work tomorrow, again. I feel sick and teary and have a headache... but I can't call in sick because of the horrendous amount of work that would fall on my co-worker if I did, plus the horrific amount that would be left for me on Thursday. Ugh!
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