advice on a paralysed craving!

[taurushead]

:brood: random thread BUT..

ive eaten a range of everything today..but have this craving for..i dont know what. its the kind of craving that makes your skin crawl, but everything i look at isn't a good idea or isn't what im craving or something. i can't solve it and its driving me bonkers. dont see how anyone can help..
i just feel totally paralysed coz i can't make this awful feeling go away and coz i dont know if its actually that i dont want the stuff or that i dont want to eat it if its not EXACTLY what i want and waste calories (no...this is only just tonight. wasn't even worried during the day)
i dont know whats going on.
and its been an awesome day. everythings great. so why now, suddenly, over something as dumb as not identifying what i want (after doing that all week, its nothing new?! i keep picking stuff and being pleased with choices) am i close to tears?! WHAT THE HECK?!

[taurushead]

AND...after not thinking about what i was eating, or thinking and not minding, and doing very life-ey type things and actually enjoying the world..., it came to a screeching halt after all this epic progress because today i STILL just can't do the meals thing. its ridiculous.
ok ill stop typing now. i just dont know where this is coming from

[piratemoon]

Hey, don't panic. People get those cravings. A lot of the time I think it is bordem. And it doesn't matter about the meals thing, just take it slow. Whether you eat 3 largish meals or 15 little ones, its ok, as long as you are getting the calories and nutrients you need.

Relax, you're doing so well. :)

[taurushead]

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well...i fought it. ignored it. did other things. but then...it came back. so i sat down, and ate the biscuits. i dont know why i wanted them. i dont know why i even bought them this morning. i rarely eat biscuits. sigh.
thing is..my worst fear happened, i had the biscuits and then realised what it was i wanted. had a piece of toast AND porridge.
that brings me up to 300 carbs today. and 2100 calories.
tomorrow i promise to not care. but also to eat better.

[taurushead]

and...and now ive lost that lovely controlly feeling i had a few hours ago that id been missing. but ...but when ive got that...im missing the lovely controlly feeling where i eat what i want.
and i dont know WHY this week ive been craving so much sugar and starch. its insane.
and ive been going with it all week.
and now tonight..just ONE night i tried to be healthy.
aaaa :( :( i was gonna sit and read but now i just dont wanna. im going to bed. tomorrow is a whole new day. of just fruits and veggies. this chocolate and cookies business is going to stop. just for a while.