I know none of you know me personally, but I have been plagued my entire life by being seen by people as being "different". Not different in the sense that I'm "vegan" or "unattractive" or anything else like that. People have made it clear that I am not weird for the obvious reasons...it's like there is something else about me that is odd. Some people (well, a VERY select few) view this as being a good thing. However, 99% of the world feels the opposite. Yes, I know that this does not matter and that I should be happy with myself for how I naturally am.

However, I would really like to know what it is that makes me so "odd". I don't dress odd or any of the obvious things. People think I am weird...really weird. My roommate is a very honest person and she told me how when she first met me, she said she never met anyone as weird as me (again, not for the obvious reasons). She says I am clumsy, spacey, don't know what's going on, etc. People have been telling me this stuff my whole life and it makes me so sad. It hurts me to think that I am not like everyone else in the sense that I am not "all together". I don't feel all that different...and I tell myself that I am just paranoid. But, I know deep inside that I'm not.

The realization of knowing that I can never have solid social interaction without people thinking weird things about me/negative things about me, is very painful. And constantly hearing it from my roommate is making me feel even worse that I usually do. I love her to death and she tells me the same. However, some of the things I do really "piss her off"...forgetting things once in a while (not even that often), not being as tediously observant as she is, being a romantic, being too sensitive...basically everything about my personality pisses her off. And a lot of other people, too. I can't take it anymore. If being myself is so much of a burden on everyone around me, I would rather be alone.

I have suffered through a few psychological issues because of the way people have viewed me my entire life. OCD (incredilously severe), anxiety, and EDs have all stemmed from what people have been telling me all these years.

I'm not sure what to tell you on this .... but I like you :D

i've always been "weird, but in a good way", whatever that means. it used to make me feel different and sometimes sad and lonely. my advice is don't worry about it. everyone is different. just learn to be comfortable with who you are. be more confident, and you'll be able to socialize with "normal" people.


PS i think you're attractive.:smitten: :o

I'm "different" too, always been told that. It still drives me a little crazy at times, but after some therapy and a few "revelations" it's not AS bad as it used to be.

I only fit in with "different" people somehow, just like you I'm always thinking they think I'm odd. It's almost like an odd vibe we give out.

I married a "different" man, and now we're "different" together. I love our oddities! :love:

PS it's normal to forget things once in a while. we're human, not robot. and i'm glad you're a romantic. i wish there were more out there.

I've met people who are different, but in a good way. But, I am not different in a good way. I am not "put together". I don't think I am wording it right lol. I don't fit in with "different" people. Sure, I could go down to the vegan restaurant by my school and have lunch with all the weirdos straight out of the hippie era. Yes. But, I am not like them in slightest bit. I am not weird in the stereotypical sense.

I can't explain it. Should I see a psychologist?

PS i think you're attractive.:smitten: :o

She IS so cute! CK you look adorable in that picture of you and your friend baking vegan cookies!

PS it's normal to forget things once in a while. we're human, not robot. and i'm glad you're a romantic. i wish there were more out there.

Thanks. :) I am always viewed as being very kind and sweet, however at the same time extremely odd. It's an inexplicable odd...no one can put their finger on it.

This is why I am always alone! I am unidentifiable.

She IS so cute! CK you look adorable in that picture of you and your friend baking vegan cookies!


Awww, thanks! :lovesign:

Maybe your roommates and other people who see you as odd (in a bad way) are too normal. I've found that people who strive to be average, or who are just average without even trying, are not generally the people I get along with. Therefore, I have always been content with a small number of friends who are "odd" too, and I've finally even found a boyfriend who doesn't look at me funny every time I open my mouth and who finds my sense of humor funny rather than just strange. We appreciate each other's quirks that most other people don't.

My bf's excedingly "normal" half brother recently stayed with us and I overheard him say to his wife on the phone, "they're an...uh...interesting couple," and the way he said "interesting" didn't sound all that positive. If you don't behave like the majority in this life you have to get used to receiving some negative feedback and learn to appreciate the positive feedback you get. The people who appreciate the real you with all of your oddities are the people who are more interesting to know anyway.

I've met people who are different, but in a good way. But, I am not different in a good way. I am not "put together". I don't think I am wording it right lol. I don't fit in with "different" people. Sure, I could go down to the vegan restaurant by my school and have lunch with all the weirdos straight out of the hippie era. Yes. But, I am not like them in slightest bit. I am not weird in the stereotypical sense.

I can't explain it. Should I see a psychologist?

You've explained it very well actually, I'm not weird in the stereotypical sense either, so I see what you're saying.

Therapy helped me some, at least it was a place where I could go and be myself without someone giving me a weird look. :stinkeye:

My roommate...is definitely not normal. Okay, I will explain. My roomie and I are both odd...we don't drink, party, smoke, or do anything that most people do. We both are obsessed with the Sims and have a lot of fun just doing nothing together. We get along great.

On the other hand, my roomie is also very arrogant. She believes that her perception of reality is the correct one. Therefore, things I do that diverge from HER norm, makes her annoyed and upset. However, she seems to ONLY GET THIS WAY WITH ME. With other "weird" people, she just acts like "oh, well, that's just who they are."

I, on the other hand, am SO incredibely annoying and inexplicable, that she cannot grant me the same token. Therefore, I believe that I am even weirder than the weird.

^^^ perfect explanation of what I was trying to say all along. :rockon:

I am not different in a good way. I am not "put together".


well, you're bearly 20. you're just young and that's why you're not "put together". i'm 23 and i'm still "put together"...but i'm almost there.

You sound a lot like me. :) People have always said the same things about me too. As I got older and more comfortable with myself, I came to embrace my differentness, to the point that I tend to see "normal" as being a negative thing. :D I consider myself very special and unique, and you should see yourself that way too, from the sounds of it.

CK, you sound a lot like me, so don't despair! i have a few friends who accept me for the "weirdo" i am, and everyone else can shove off!

what other people say often comes not from a point of truth or reality, but rather from a space of cultural and social conditioning. These things are entirely constructed, and in and of themselves, they do not hold a lot of inherent value. they hold situational value, predominently.

knowing this, or understanding this, you can begin to see if what people say is true. this is what i do with a lot of the criticism that i get in my life--whether it's about me being personally 'very weird' or 'intimidating' (i don't understand how i'm intimidating), or about my profesisonal life or whatever else. I take that criticism as if it is a slide. And i hold it up to my inner light. That light is true and pure, it is that of God within, completely holy and has completely clarity.

sometimes, the picture that shines from the slide is accurate, but often it is warped. It is warped by people's false lenses, expectations, and cultural ideas. so, i do not accept what is warped.

this is a good practice to consider.

See, you just started this thread a few minutes ago and look at all the weirdos that showed up! Weirdos unite!! :pibo: (<= I'd been wanting to use this guy!)

Instead of seeing a psychologist, CK, perhaps you should go visit a Buddhist or two. :D

buddhists do well. yup. lots of good, practical philosophy.

Um no. I personally disagree with the Buddhist thing (not to be rude - sorry guys). I do get your point tho. I think you should accept and love you for who you are (regardless of those who think you're weird). Remember college can be sort of like a bubble so you have to remember that just because the ppl around you NOW think you're weird, doesn't mean EVERYONE thinks your weird. There's probably a lot of ppl out there that think you're cooler than you think. Once you're confident in who you are, people will notice and accept and love you for who you are. Its definitely a growing process and many people are still going thru it as well, so consider yourself ahead of the game. :D

Are you in college? I ask because college seems to be a uniquely "defining" time in life. Most students naturally gravitate to groups - like sports and fraternities and their scholastic majors and such. If that's the case, perhaps you are just more of an "individual" than others at this time in your life, and that makes you seem different. If you are in college, I can pretty much guarantee that things will get better out in the "real world" (well, some things will get better, others will get a lot worse!!!). People with jobs and family issues spend a whole lot less time focused on how someone else may or may not be different. And as far as your roommate goes, as long as you get along and respect each other's privacy/possessions/study time - then she really has no business criticizing you or making snotty comments on your personality (which I suspect is just fine!!!).

Um no. I personally disagree with the Buddhist thing (not to be rude - sorry guys). I do get your point tho. I think you should accept and love you for who you are (regardless of those who think you're weird). Remember college can be sort of like a bubble so you have to remember that just because the ppl around you NOW think you're weird, doesn't mean EVERYONE thinks your weird. There's probably a lot of ppl out there that think you're cooler than you think. Once you're confident in who you are, people will notice and accept and love you for who you are. Its definitely a growing process and many people are still going thru it as well, so consider yourself ahead of the game. :D

I am pretty into Buddhist philosophy and posted here a few times about perhaps taking a stay at a monestary, but all of the retreat packages I looked into were not for me.

Thank you all for your kind words. This situation is just so immensely disheartening and it's really brought me down a lot. :) I do have a lot of good friends in general, but here at school I only have a few, including my roomie.

I will try to stay positive. I think I will look into seeing a counselor though, anyway. :)

Well it wouldn't do if we were all the same!

When I was really new here, you always struck me (and still do) as very bright, funny, reasonable, creative and well liked! I always look forward to reading your posts.

The difference between being 'cool' and being 'weird' is how confident you are about it.

I know, because I used to weird. And now I am cool. And only one thing has changed.


I think that if you walked around with a John Waybe swagger, you'd feel great.:D