My grandpa who has been having troubles with his heart lately is back in hospital with heart failure, the doctors have apparantly told my mother that it's probably just a matter of days now.
The doctors though have not told my grandpa this because they fear of they tell him he will give up hope and stop trying to get live, although he's already stopped eating, it's looking pretty bleak right now, I feel terrible for my mother, it's not even been a year since my grandma passed away from a stroke.

I'm really angry with myself at the moment because I can't bring myself to leave the house to see him because of my agoraphobia, even though I know he could pass away any day now and this may be the last time to see him I just can't bring myself to leave the house, I hate myself right now... I don't even know if I'll be able to make it to the funeral (if the worst comes to the worst).

Best wishes for your grandpa, you, and your family. Doctors have been wrong, maybe he'll pull through. :hug:

I understand...though it isn't a matter of days in my case, my gramp's health is deteriorating rapidly. I'm really sorry you have to go through this. :hug: I hope you can bring it upon yourself to leave the house and see him, but if you can't...could you possibly call him at all? Best of wishes in this time of struggle. :hug: