just found out i have ed. sigh* oh, well.

[weird2twiggy]

i just felt like sharing. nothing THAT important. you dont have to read it all if you dont want:

well, im normal weight, so i never thought i did have an eating disorder.
but as long as i can reember, i've never eaten normally. i either eat pretty much nothing all day - maybe three or four small meals - small meal being an apple or something like that. or i binge.

i binged a lot yesturdya. i dont know why, i just couldnt sotp. but today, i REALLY binged. i felt like i was going to voimit. not just because of emotional digusting feeling, but physicaloly, i was SOOO close. imean, by a hair. but i have a fear of vomiting, i think, i always try to avoid it by all means necessary. so i didnt throw up. but it was HORRIBLE!!!! i couldnt sit without feeling like i was going to vomit any second, or lay down or anything. it was hell.

i dotn like going to doctors/psychologists, and all those people so i dont want to ask them. i was just wondering if i did have an ED.

there's this other forum that i used to go to a lot, and now i started to again. they have relaly good sections for emotionally .... um, weird people. there's people that used to be abused, bipolar, suicidal, eatin disorders, etc. its reallyg ood. so i wetn there. and this person suggested taht i take this test online and i did. i just finished.
it said that if i score over twenty that that's not good. and i scored twenty nine. but hte thing is, i'm vegan (which has ABSOLUTELY NOTHING with weight issues) but anyway, so i dont eat a lot things that are fattening, and id ont eat sugar becuase i never know if its filtered through bone char. so the results may not be that accurate

for isntance - theres a question - do you stay away from sugar? and i ALWAYS stay away from sugar, but not for weight reasons... so it might not be accurate . i tried to make it accurate, for instance i answered that one question with sometimes. instead of always.

so, um, that's..... nice. i have an ed, i guess.

[Kreeli]

results of online quizzes and tests cannot be accurate indicators of health or emotional issues, or eating disorders. if you think you may have an eating disorder, you need to talk to a doctor and get a real diagnosis.

[Mskedi]

I second what Kreeli said. Please talk to someone who's qualified.

:)

[josephine]

I second everything Kreeli said.

[weird2twiggy]

i'd rather not. i mean, all they COULD do is tell me yes, you do have it or no you dont. and they cant do anything else... except maybe give me drugs. MAYBE.

but i hate drugs. i ahvnt taken any in years... adn i dont want to.. so i really dotn see the point. i mean, i'm healthy and all, i just hate the feeling of binging.

but the experience today will defenetly inspire me to do beter tomorrow, and later on , i think.

but only time can tell right???

[Kreeli]

whatever. if you suspect you have an ED, you probably do. people without EDs don't wonder about whether or not they have one. and no, drugs aren't the only way to help manage an ED. at the very least, you could be referred to a nutritionist who could go over ways to manage a healthy diet no matter if you have an ED or not.

if you don't want help with your food issues, then nothing we can say here will help you. the fact that you even posted this tells me that you think you might need to reach out and get help. if that is so, remember that it is scary, but you would never, ever regret it in the long run.

[Mskedi]

i'd rather not. i mean, all they COULD do is tell me yes, you do have it or no you dont. and they cant do anything else... except maybe give me drugs. MAYBE.



I've had way too many friends on death's door due to their eating disorders. The professionals can do a hell of a lot more than diagnose, and NONE of my friends were given medication. One was put on an IV because she had gotten so small and her stomach wouldn't hold any food down, but that was because she had gotten into an area that was life or death.

If you have an ED, you need help. I don't know a single person who has gotten over it on his or her own. Maybe they exist, but I have yet to meet them. I do know people who have been helped by doctors and/or therapists.

If you don't have an ED, what's wrong with having someone tell you so? This is certainly not something you leave up to an internet quiz.

Personally, the fact that you think you're a normal weight makes me think that you don't have one. My friends have always had distorted body images and have never said there was anything remotely positive or normal about their weight. Binging can be due to emotional reasons -- depression, boredom, etc... Doing this too much is certainly not a healthy relationship with food, but it's not the end of the world either. You've already said that you thought the quiz was invalid because your answers had to do with veganism a good chunk of the time. Are you going to rely on a test that you admittedly don't trust?

Just go talk to someone about it. If you have one, you need help. Period. If you don't, then it still couldn't hurt you to see a nutritionist since you have said you don't like your eating habits.

[Vegankat]

Sorry, this just sounds like a plea for attention. If you have an ED, you would know about it and you wouldn't be like "OMFG I have an ED so I'm going to post a thread on a message board to brag about it instead of the support threads that are clearly labelled and I'm going to make a big fuss about not wanting to get help."


I hate to be a biotch, but this is a sore subject with me. If you think you have an ED, or you want to pretend you do, at least do it without offending people who have them with your flippancy. :rolleyes:

[Mskedi]

I have a lot of free time on my hands today.

So I took 9 on-line quizzes stating they would tell if I had/was in danger of having an ED.

8 out of 9 said that I needed to go see a professional immediately.

I can guarantee you I don't have an ED. This kind of medical advice is bunk, and, as VeganKat pointed out, is insulting and insensitive to those who truly suffer.

[SeaSiren]

I think you need to stay off the other board.

1- You're normal weight - this is better then most of the population
2- For the most part during the month you eat only when you are hungry
3- On occassion, you'll "binge", i.e. can't figure out what you want so you eat several different items knowing fully well you are not really hungry?

Sounds like a cycle to me, are you per chance near your period?

You're not throwing up, you're not eating entire cakes, with entire ice cream containers, with an entire chip bag, and may I reiterate....you are normal weight.

I don't see an ED here.

However, if you are REALLY worried see a professional.

[AngelOfDance]

generally, it's not something you "find out."

You realize it. It's not like someone can give you the news... it's not like someone telling you have cancer. It's not a definite thing like that where a testcan tell you if you're sick or you're well or you're just faking it... I had lotsof people tell me that they thought I had a problem and needed help and I told them they were nuts. I took tests as well, out of curiosity mostly, and decided that they were bunk and disregarded the results. It wasn't until something snapped in MY mind that I realized it had taken over my life and it needed to end.

if you think it needs to end, talk to a doctor. I hate them too, but they can tell you you're fine and can relax or that you should pursue a course of recovery and stop this. If it doesn't bother you too much, then you're fine.

and as for the dysmorphia thing, I knew what my weight was at my lowest... and everyhing I looked at told me I was "underweight" "emaciated" "anorexic weight" etc. and I would have called myself average weight. I also would have told you, if you asked, that average weight as no good and that I didn't understand how I could be so massive at an "average" weight.

[Azalea]

Personally, the fact that you think you're a normal weight makes me think that you don't have one.


Many, many people with EDs are at a normal weight. EDs are not primarily about weight; they're about a person's relationship with food and emotional state of mind.

Weird2twiggy: whether you have a full-blown ED or not (and honestly, there is no clear line between an "actual" ED and a messed up relationship with food), it seems clear to be that you don't have a healthy relationship with food, and I think this needs to be addressed. Clearly, something need to be done, because living like this is neither emotional nor physically healthy. ED treatment is rarely cantered around drugs, btw. Often, it's a combination of therapy and nutritional follow-up; and I think both a crucial, as the dual nature of EDs requires that both the food- and the mind issues are taken care of.


Take care. :hug:

[Mskedi]

Many, many people with EDs are at a normal weight. EDs are not primarily about weight; they're about a person's relationship with food and emotional state of mind.


Oh, I know that. I just don't see a lot of people with EDs running around saying they have a "normal" weight. That's a comment I've never heard from one of my friends who has suffered/suffers from an ED. Usually their weight is perfectly fine at first, but they constantly think they're fat. A friend of mine, at just over 70 pounds, still considered herself fat even though she was skin and bones and essentially dying in a hospital. She started out just fine, of course, but the pressures of being a thin dancer got to her.

I agree that the OP probably has an unhealthy relationship with food and should see someone, but I don't think that saying "I can't go to a doctor because they won't do anything" is beneficial to her. It was while reading that post where I lost my patience.

[Azalea]

Oh, I know that. I just don't see a lot of people with EDs running around saying they have a "normal" weight. That's a comment I've never heard from one of my friends who has suffered/suffers from an ED. Usually their weight is perfectly fine at first, but they constantly think they're fat. A friend of mine, at just over 70 pounds, still considered herself fat even though she was skin and bones and essentially dying in a hospital. She started out just fine, of course, but the pressures of being a thin dancer got to her.


OK. :)

Still, I want to stress that EDs doesn't necessarily imply dysmorphia. She can view herself as being at a normal weight while still having great emotional problems with food.

I had an ED for many years, but I did not feel too fat as much as I felt I weighted too much. If someone would have asked me how I perceived myself when I was at underweight, I would have stated that I was perfectly aware that I was thin, but I still had a strong desire to lose weight.

[GOPVeggie]

Crap! From reading the subject I thought you meant erectile disfunction. Anyway, good luck.

[weird2twiggy]

okay, i was thinking, maybe i dont have it. that's probably it, but yeasturday was horrible. and i really did think i did have it. it doesnt mean that i just wanted attention. you dotn have to criticize me. i wanted to know if i had it. where else am i supposed to ask that question then in a section that talks about it. i'm sorry if it made you mad that i talked about it where people that actually have it go to talk.

i was hoping to have someone else tell me that i didnt have it... or get some more information. i proably dont have it....

so, thats that.
end of thread.

[weird2twiggy]

Crap! From reading the subject I thought you meant erectile disfunction. Anyway, good luck.

ha-ha. :)

[FreshTart]

I see that I am not needed.
Good job all ;)
*leaves the building*

[pseudo_vegan]

I see that I am not needed.
Good job all ;)
*leaves the building*

:lol:

:nigel: C.

[Different]

Sorry, this just sounds like a plea for attention. If you have an ED, you would know about it and you wouldn't be like "OMFG I have an ED so I'm going to post a thread on a message board to brag about it instead of the support threads that are clearly labelled and I'm going to make a big fuss about not wanting to get help."


I hate to be a biotch, but this is a sore subject with me. If you think you have an ED, or you want to pretend you do, at least do it without offending people who have them with your flippancy. :rolleyes:


:(

[Different]

Sorry, this just sounds like a plea for attention. If you have an ED, you would know about it and you wouldn't be like "OMFG I have an ED so I'm going to post a thread on a message board to brag about it instead of the support threads that are clearly labelled and I'm going to make a big fuss about not wanting to get help."


I hate to be a biotch, but this is a sore subject with me. If you think you have an ED, or you want to pretend you do, at least do it without offending people who have them with your flippancy. :rolleyes:


:(

**some people post threads like this because they're worried and want some friendly input. I have an eating disorder that really sucks right now and have asked questions of people in all sorts of odd ways. PM me if you want to chat.

[Azalea]

W2t: I don't think anybody here telling you that you have or haven't got an ED should really matter that much. If I were to tell you, no you don't have an ED, why would that really make a difference if you continue to have what sounds like an unhealthy and stressful relationship with food?

Besides, as I said, there is a lot of gray area when it comes to EDs. There are all kinds of borderline cases, and like Angel said, it's not something you "get", like a physical disease.

Take care. :)

[Nikih]

I guess I don't really understand what you want help with here.

If you don't want to go to a doctor, how about getting a book on ed? There's lots of them out there. Even like the Dr. Phil book might help you out. Or something along those lines might be of help to you.

I also don't think that if you were to seek therapy, they would force you to take medication. I think they can't force you to do or take anything unless you are saying you're going to kill yourself, someone else, or are really hallucinating or something pretty severe.

take care :)

[TheWrongGirl]

I have a lot of free time on my hands today.

So I took 9 on-line quizzes stating they would tell if I had/was in danger of having an ED.

8 out of 9 said that I needed to go see a professional immediately.

I can guarantee you I don't have an ED. This kind of medical advice is bunk, and, as VeganKat pointed out, is insulting and insensitive to those who truly suffer.

Doctors always try to diagnose women with any kind of disorder they can. I went to a doctor because I'd been getting really bad headaches alot, and he tried to prescribe me prozac because I was "depressed". I went to an eye doctor on the advice of my mom, and turns out I just had eyestrain and just needed some reading glasses for when I work on a computer.

I don't think these online tests are very accurate, either.

However, I don't think it's fair to attack this girl because she took an online test and thinks she may have an ED. If you suspect you have an ED, no matter how against doctors you are, go to a doctor, girl. We have to take care of our bodies while we're young, or we'll end up being slumped over weak old women!