Food Issues Food Log

[Virtue23]

was the cranberry-orange loaf from trader joe's?

I'm not sure actually, since my mom bought it. :) I doubt it tho.

All I know is you make it from the box and add really delicious cranberries to it - Yum! I'm actually eating some right now. :lick:

Oh yeah, and yesterday I also had 1/2 serv. of raw bay carrots with a little tomato sauce. I figured I should get some more food in me (and why not veggies?). :D

[Unregistered]

Ok yeah, since they're being extra strict in the other thread, I figured I should post here, as my daily eats are not as nutritionally sound as I'd like right now. :-P Under mucho stress and haven't had time to buy more fruit and veggues sooo...

Today:

B: Quaker oatmeal packet, 1C diet coke
s: 1 small, lf oatmeal raisin granola bar
L: usual small tortilla wrap, 1/2C no-sugar-added applesauce, sample-sized pack pb crackers
s: 2 more of the small gran. bars (will eat between 2PM - 6 PM)
D: ???

So basically a bunch of smallish/low-calorie/non-nutrient-enriched food. :-P Eh... at least the gran. bars are whole-grain and reduced-sugar and I do have some real applesauce in there. Hopefully some veggies for dinner.

[hopejoy]

I usually post in the What I ate Today forum, but today I ate so poorly that I thought I'd post here...

Breakfast: None
Lunch: 2-3 sticks of celery, a rasperry protein shake, & 2 slices of carrot cake no icing

[misq17]

B: 2 PB Nature's Valley granola bars, 1 bar really yummy and rich crispy chocolate bar

L: a bag of plain lays chips, 2 Amish pretzels

S: 5 or so baby carrots, another yummy chocolate bar (this time with chopped almonds in it)

D: a bowl of veggie lo mein, a cup of grape nuts, an orange, 5 strawberries

[dietcoke]

*mini-rant*
I am sooooo annoyed. So my dad (who's a doctor) decided that to help me overcome "scale-fear" we will have a contest of who can get the highest on my mom's scale (which is routinly 7ish pounds up) without actually gaining weight, and you have to be in regular clothes. (as in, no stepping on the scale in drenched ski clothes and boots) His number is 200 (he normally weights about 175) and my number is 120 (I weigh 100ish). When we started, I had an empty stummach and was wearing the same clothes as last night--I got 114.

So, last night I was really bloated (hmmm... a gallon a water, THREE diet somethings :wall: :whack: (cream soda, root beer and diet cherry), a pot of tea and TONS of beans... haha) and I was like, "I'm gonna win!" so I got on the scale....

112. So 112-7(scale's off weight)-5(clothes-giant sweatshirt, pants)-2(water and food for the day)=98 Now I'm freaking out that I'm going to lose weight and get below 95 lbs. , which puts me at a BMI of 18.5... which puts me in the hospital.

THIS IS SO ANNOYING. Since posting on here I've been more leinieant (sp) with myself, like having tortilla chips (not the baked kind!!!), or soy cream, peanut butter, beans, cereal... all "overeating" foods. (I tend not to binge-eat, but I will eat when not hungry) Looking back at fitday add-ups, a few months ago I was only eating 1200ish cal. Now I'm at 1500. (most days.)

Sorry if that was somehow triggering or anything. I just had to post it. (I was going to talk to my little brother about it (not my dad...as he would think I'm insane) but he is currently resenting me as I am on sports teams and he is completley un-athletic.)

[Libellula]

hun, you need to eat more if you are going to be athletic. i'm sorry if your schedule doesn't allow you to have time for "real meals" and "real snacks'... see if your teachers will let you eat granola bars/bananas/larabars/nuts etc. in class. explain to them why you can't eat at the scheduled lunch time or right after school and they should be really understanding about it.

[misq17]

L: everything bagel with chik patty and ketchup, orange

D: Bowl of salad with sunflower seeds and crasins, bowl of okra/tomato/mushroom concoction, ciabatta roll

S: 2 banana muffins

[dietcoke]

libellula--currently for the next 2 weeks I am in ceramics before lunch, which is why it's so hard for me to eat snacks and stuff (I'd prefer to be a little hungry than die from paint poisoning!!!). I'm working on upping my cal. again... it sort of revolves around this schedule change.

I'm going to talk to my speech teacher, however, but she's kind of crazy... all we're doing is practicing our "finals" so HOPEFULLY she won't mind.

But then again, she only lets kids out to go to the bathroom if it's inbetween a certain time. So I'm not so optimistic about her letting me eat. :(

[bluewisdom]

I binged AGAIN today. I was hungry at first, but then kept going and going and going, beyond being satisified. I wanted to feel STUFFED and I wanted to CHEW and I don't know what else. Maybe I was bored, maybe I was frustrated with my weight issues.

Well, my stomach never got that stuffed feeling anyway...it just got bloated, and now it is bloated all the way up to my chest/lungs and I feel so awful, mentally not to mention physically. Afterwards, I exercised on the stationary bike for 35 minutes. Then I weighed myself..well, I went from 71.3 lbs in the morning to a current 74.1 lbs after the binge.
Damn.
I feel so stupid; why do I keep doing this?!? I never used to binge NEVER, I feel like such a 'bad' recovering anoretic, like perhaps I never was one..maybe it was all a dream.

Today's eats:

9:30 AM:
*half of a grilled cheese w. tomato sandwich (leftover from coffee shop)
*1 yocrunch reese's pieces yogurt
*handful of raisins

2:00 PM:
*yogurt parfait:
-8 oz generic strawberry-cheesecake fruit on the bottom yogurt
-half a banana
-half a banana
-1 100calorie snack pack of grahmn crackers
-aprox 4 servs fat-free whipped cream
-1.5 tbsps skippy peanut butter

*1 package of fruit gushers
*sugarfree tropicana fruit punch

3:30 PM:
*chocolate starlight mint hard candy; diet root beer; lots of sugarfree gum

5:50 PM - 7:30 PM:
*1/2 a zen bakery oatmeal cranberry cookie
THEN THE BINGE BEGINS
*1 chocolate covered pretzel, 1 yogurt covered banana chip, 1 raspberry yogurt coated raisin, 1 peanut butter coated raisin, 1 chocolate coated raisin, 1 chocolate maltball, 2 peanut butter covered peanuts (this was from a bag of "bridge trail mix")
*handful of maccadamia nuts
*2 chocolate covered cranberries
*1 individual serv. size roll of these weird candies (forgot the name)
took a break...then started again....
*1 serv. pb&j ritz sandwich crackers
*1 sugarfree jello

Annnd I "chewed and spit" (wanted to try it >.<) one ritz-type cracker, but it was slightly bigger than a regular ritz cracker.

Post-binge:
lots of tums.

10:50 PM (not a binge....was hungry...i think):
*1 chocolate vanilla fatfree pudding cup
*1 cracker breadsticks with cheesedip kit
*4 fl oz strawberry soymilk

Total cals for the day...aprox 2800. Of real food. No Ensures consumed.
I want to die.
>.<

[Libellula]

that wasn't a binge, hun.. that was a normal-person sized "dinner".. it may not have been as healthy as you would have liked, but it was real food..

you jumped out of the plane.

i know you don't feel well.. but the real food TASTES better than the ensures. /hugs

[bluewisdom]

that wasn't a binge, hun.. that was a normal-person sized "dinner".. it may not have been as healthy as you would have liked, but it was real food..

you jumped out of the plane.

i know you don't feel well.. but the real food TASTES better than the ensures. /hugs

But I was full...I just kept going and going and was out of control. I couldn't stop...

It might not be a binge on the terms of amount or calories...
but it was a binge based on how I felt. :\

[bluewisdom]

jan 9, 2006..so far:

*one ensure plus

*peanut butter and raspberry jam cottage cheese sandwich (2 slices sweet hawaiian bread, 2 tbsps pb, and 1 cottage cheese raspberry double kit)
*aprox 12 fl oz of naked's red machine juice

*starbucks tall, no whip, coffee based frap w. 2 pumps white chocolate mocha syrup and 1 pump raspberry syrup (but the barista gave me the lid you get for whipped cream and i got extra drink! mmmm. so it was grande size. hehe. freebies!..now if i was deep into my ED, I would've been PISSED about the extra....more calories....but not anymore!)..i believe the white choc syrup is 50 cal per pump and the raspberry 20, and the tall coffee base 190...so 310 for the tall drink, so about 390 - 450 for the grande size i got.


*two bananas
*1 chocolate fat free pudding cup

*peach cottage cheese sandwich (1 slice hearty potato bread, 1 peach cottage cheese double kit)
*1 slice hearty potato bread w. 1 tbsp nutella and 1/2 tbsp peanut butter

*ensure plus

ummm, i think that was all I had. i may be forgetting one thing.

edit: right, I forgot 1 chocolate cream pumpkin peep and 1 chocolate covered pretzel.

[Libellula]

mmmmmmmmmmm.....

now i need to go to my local fair trade shop and ask them to make me a fake frap w/ice and soymilk and espresso and mint syrup and chocolate syrup and mmmm....... that sounds yummy blue! :)

[Virtue23]

Today:

Quaker Oatmeal Express cup - 200 c
2 bananas - 200 c
1 pb cracker - 34 c
1 small candy cane - 50c ??
water

Not feeling too well today. Maybe I'll have some tea later and another snack or 2, most likely.

[taurushead]

virtue...i dont wanna sound like a dick :down:
but even for a sick person....that is nooooot enough food:notvegan: ......

what bout vegie soup?? lotsa nutrients, not a scary amount of calories, tasty:hungry: and goes down well when u feel icky

ps. :santa: mm candy canes!

[Virtue23]

Yeah, I know... but I'm stuck at work, no $$, and I have a dance practice to go to afterwards. :-P I wish I had some veggie soup...mmmm.

Also, I'm not scared of calories (never had an ED). Sometimes I just eat less than usual... and sometimes I eat more than usual (or the "normal" amount). It all balances out in the end, I think tho.

[taurushead]

oo sorry, i didn't realise. i always forget this isn't just like..an Ed thread. my bad.
xoxo :D

[bluewisdom]

so far.

6:00 AM:
*ensure plus

10:00 AM:
*peanut butter & raspberry cottage cheese sandwich (2 tbsps pb, 2 slices bread, 1 cc fruit double kit)
*6 fl oz 2% chocolate milk

3:00 PM:
*balance bar (almond brownie)
*brown cow cream top chocolate yogurt
*1 yogurt coated peanut
*2 yogurt coated pretzels

Later:
sip of naked's green machine (whoa, does this stuff taste like garlic too anybody else? i KIND of liked it, but for the most part, found it was too strong for my tastes.)

several grape tomatoes

7:50 PM:
oatmeal! consisting of:
-40g dry thick steel cut rolled oats
-3/4 cup water
-2 tsps brown sugar
-1/2 tsp pumpkin pie spice
-1 banana sliced
-unmeasured/ unknown amounts of dried fruit (raisins, cherries, strawberries, blueberries, two apricots)
-1 tbsp sliced toasted almonds
-1/2 cup 8th continent original fat-free soymilk

[ynaffit]

classes have started and i haven't been able to sleep for a few days, so:

morning: 2 pb cookies w/ coffee
between classes: .64lb tub of cantaloupe, mango naked juice
afternoon: 2 pb cookies
night: big plate of spaghetti, 5 spring rolls, few chunks of canned pineapple, orange juice, square of chocolate

[taurushead]

ok i think ive actually forgotten part of this morning BUT-

6am (slept until 5 30!! YAY!)- peanut butter out of jar, natural yogurt, piece of grain toast
8 30- soy latte
10ish- home made tomato,broccoli and mushroom pasta sauce (just the sauce...sooo good),
12- 3apricots
1ish- piece of grain toast w butter
2 30- 4 squares dark chocolate
6 30- 2 rye crackerboards and about 6 '9grain' crackerboards
7- piece of grain toast w butter
7 20- 2 scoops of mango frozen yogurt.

was that good??

[ynaffit]

sip of naked's green machine (whoa, does this stuff taste like garlic too anybody else? i KIND of liked it, but for the most part, found it was too strong for my tastes.)
not really, just the tiniest bit.

[wannadisco]

ok i think ive actually forgotten part of this morning BUT-

6am (slept until 5 30!! YAY!)- peanut butter out of jar, natural yogurt, piece of grain toast
8 30- soy latte
10ish- home made tomato,broccoli and mushroom pasta sauce (just the sauce...sooo good),
12- 3apricots
1ish- piece of grain toast w butter
2 30- 4 squares dark chocolate
6 30- 2 rye crackerboards and about 6 '9grain' crackerboards
7- piece of grain toast w butter
7 20- 2 scoops of mango frozen yogurt.

was that good??

people say eating small, regular meals (no more than 3 hrs apart) is good for you and speeds up your metabolism so looks good to me! i also <3 pasta sauce more than anything, just a bowl of it with a spoon ;)

[Virtue23]

Yeah, I know... but I'm stuck at work, no $$, and I have a dance practice to go to afterwards. :-P I wish I had some veggie soup...mmmm.

Also, I'm not scared of calories (never had an ED). Sometimes I just eat less than usual... and sometimes I eat more than usual (or the "normal" amount). It all balances out in the end, I think tho.

Ok... now I'm starting to feel like I have an ED. Cause I binged on totally unhealthy stuff this morning and a little last night. And I feel like crud. :spew:

Last night I had 1/2 package of ho hos (for those who don't know, that's 1.5 small chocolate creme cakes) and then had a few handfuls of bbq chips (no trans fat).

This morning:

B: oatmeal packet (raisin spice), 1C tea and some water... that's when it got BAD. I then had like 4 handfuls of the bbq chips, went to work and had 3 tiny donut munchkins and a small thin slice of banana bread!

And my plan for the day:

L: usual tortilla wrap, 1 banana, water
s: 4 hershey gran. bites
D: will make spinach and black beans!!

So the quantity of my morning was WAAYYY more than I'm used to and the quality was even worse. Nothing but junk/carbs!! I feel wretched now. And its probably cause I had so little yesterday and not enough healthy foods around me. Blech, this sucks! I really hope to do better, once I can go shopping!

[bluewisdom]

Ok... now I'm starting to feel like I have an ED. Cause I binged on totally unhealthy stuff this morning and a little last night. And I feel like crud. :spew:

Last night I had 1/2 package of ho hos (for those who don't know, that's 1.5 small chocolate creme cakes) and then had a few handfuls of bbq chips (no trans fat).

This morning:

B: oatmeal packet (raisin spice), 1C tea and some water... that's when it got BAD. I then had like 4 handfuls of the bbq chips, went to work and had 3 tiny donut munchkins and a small thin slice of banana bread!

And my plan for the day:

L: usual tortilla wrap, 1 banana, water
s: 4 hershey gran. bites
D: will make spinach and black beans!!

So the quantity of my morning was WAAYYY more than I'm used to and the quality was even worse. Nothing but junk/carbs!! I feel wretched now. And its probably cause I had so little yesterday and not enough healthy foods around me. Blech, this sucks! I really hope to do better, once I can go shopping!

was it REALLY a binge?
did you feel out of control, like you couldn't stop?
did you eat beyond the point of satiety/fullness?
did you feel sick afterwards?
were you eating for reasons outside of hunger?

i don't think you ate too much in one sitting, so I don't think, based on the food, it would be considered a binge by the DSM standards. if that's any consolation.

[taurushead]

yay thank you wanna disco!!! teehee. i just worry, coz like..my portions and what not are so outta whack. ill eat a huge amount and think its nothing, or vica versa!!
I actually got up at 2am and added 3 slices of toast to that.
and its 5 30am now (just..can't..sleep..in. grr) and ive already had like 600 calories (including the 2am toast). i haven't even been COUNTING calories til today. DAMNIT. and getting up early always means im gonna eat more. sigh.
vitamin chocolate milk stuff and a big tub of natural yogurt. sigh.