Teens: Anyone else get cripplingly depressed?

[Nirvana19105]

I hate to sound like the typical whiney teenager, but there are some days I get so depressed I feel like I can barely function.

I mean, don't get me wrong. I know deep down that there's really no reason I should be like this. I mean, it's not like I'm fearing for my life in a lousy neighborhood or wondering where my next meal is coming from. I live in a fairly normal household, my parents are together, and we're comfortable monetarily. Some days I can appreciate all that and just tell myself to suck it up and stop complaining.

Others though, I don't know. It's like I can't think of a good reason to bother waking up and going on with the day. I mean, my routine to point that it's sickening. Not only is it methodical, but it's meaningless. I really make no positive impact on anyone, I seem to occupy space. I mean, I realize that most people never ammount to much, but at least they manage to ignore that fact and lead blissfully ignorant lives. Obviously I'm having a harder and harder time doing that.

I mean, what drives all of you to keep going? Your friends? Your signifcant others? Jobs? Television shows? Maybe there's something I'm missing. It's not like I'm a completely anti-social creep. I've got friends, some close ones as well. It just seems like I can never totally connect with them. I guess it could partially be conflicting interests. It seems that the average kid these days just likes to spend their free time wasted, which I've never been terribly interested in. So when they're off drinking on a Saturday night, I end up at home on the computer or something.

I've never had a real girlfriend. Is that all it is? Christ, I hope I'm not that shallow. Of course, it can't help. I've had some pretty awful experiences in that department. I'm the kind that ends up hopelessy in love with girls, and then get crushed by them. One had enthralled me for over two years before I decided to make a move, needless to say, I was blown off. Just recently I managed to screw up again. I became close friends with a girl, which later turned into a deep infatuation. Evidently she felt fairly close to me, because she ended up telling me about a self cutting habit of hers. Well, this effected me as well, and helping her basically consumed my life for weeks. Eventually though, she got bored of me I guess. In her exact words, I became a hassle, and she regretted ever telling me. She even went as far as to make jokes about the whole thing. "Hey Chris, I've got...A KNIFE at home! Whatcha gonna do about it? Huh? huh?" I'll spare you my life story, but take it from me, I always manage to screw something up.

So what do you all think? Maybe I'd just feel better if I knew other people who went through this. It just seems like everyone I know manages to be happy about something when I just can't. Oh, and please, I mean no disrespect, but don't suggest "finding faith" or anything. I was raised Christian, and quickly grew out of that. If that's all that keeps you going, I please, just keep it to yourself.

Well, anyway, I'm just gonna go. Thanks for listening.

[Meo]

...But typical teenage angst just can't be helped sometimes. <__<;

I know how you feel, though. I'm known to have huge mood swings, so I have really high highs and really low lows. Lately, it's been the low lows at home, when I think about how my best friend left me (she's the girl I've had a crush on for a long time).

It's all rather confusing when you can't identify a source, eh?

[Alec Eiffel]

Of course, I think everyone feels like this at sometime in their life, some keep it to themselves, some commit suicide, some find God, some dont, some turn to alcohol, some justify leading crappy lifes as a means of pardon for murder. You seem to be handling it well, just keep your head up. I feel like this every once in awhile, and trust me, there has been MANY a day when I dont have a reason to even get out of bed, I just want to lie in bed for a couple of days and die of starvation, suicide without even lifting a finger. But that wont help anything, I know its hard to sometimes see the good in the world when all you are receiving is crap, I know what it feels like to have **** flung at your face repeatedly (not literally), but trust me, everyone goes through this and things will get better. I mean, its not like this is abnormal or anything, its how life works. Theres a time to laugh, a time to cry, a time to mourn, a time to dance, a time to rejoice, I think you get the point, basically theres a time for everything. These times which one experiences make them into the people they are, granted they see through the **** and stick through the tough times. Even mother Tersea felt empty and worthless at times in her life. I mean, Moses broke ALL ten commandments and he was the one who was told to write them!!! I wont tell you to find faith, you will someday find it on your own. This is me keeping it to myself and being as honest as I possibly can. Keep your head up, someone loves you.

[Alec Eiffel]

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[Alec Eiffel]

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[Alec Eiffel]

Teresa? Oh well. I SUCK AT LIFE. take care, this is my last post, I think..

[michael_veggie]

I only live to continue on my family name I'm the only one who can, thats why I was born and why I exist.

[Tiggzie]

:hug: Dude, you've like become one of my favourite teens on here. I know exactly how you're feeling. Hell, I even made a post about it in the health forum. It's such an overwhelming feeling: getting out of bed, wondering why you bother to keep going. And sometimes I feel sad but a lot of times I just feel numb. It sucks but I think we can get through it with someone, ya know?

It seems to me that a lot of ppl are depressed right now and I think it has to do with the winter. Not that I'm completely writing off your feelings or anything, they're completely valid. If you ever want to talk, yell or even whine then by all means please PM, AIM or email me. The same goes for anyone else on here. I've grown to care for you guys muchly. :love:

[SunshineDreamer]

I felt like that a while ago... I'm better now, but still somewhat depressed. Maybe it does have something to do with the winter like Tiggzie said. I hate the cold :-/

[misq17]

I often feel the same way, especially after I've gone a while without seeing friends (like a long weekend). I live comfortably, and I'm provided for. I have friends and everything so I don't know why I ge tlike that. Sometimes it just helps me to talk to a friend online or on the phone who will make me laugh or smile. Knowing that there will always be someone there to make you smile or listen when you're feeling down always helps. :hug:

[skunkpumpkin]

I can really relate to the beginning of your post---beating yourself up for being depressed when you have so much to be thankful for. Sometimes I just get SO SAD and restless and I don't know what to do with myself. I think it's all part of growing up and finding out who you are. Some people have an easier time figuring themselves out than others. Something that helps me is having passions. I just wrapped up a school play I was in; it was an awesome experience. I've discovered a love of painting, and have been writing for years. Pursuing interests results in having activities that will keep you going through the toughest times, i believe. Of course, family and friends are great support systems. I don't have a whole lot of friends, but I'm pretty close to most of the ones I do have. They're the ones who have in fact, helped me realize my recent interests. However, it's not a fool-proof plan. I do still get depressed and confused. My interest in a certain fellow contributes to a lot of this. It's tough but it will all come together some day, perhaps sooner than you think. Just get involved in the world and keep shining!

[Kiddoemo]

yes that happens to me sometimes. the thing that keeps me going is the fact that knowing someday i may make an impact on someone. you need to find something you enjoy doing. just something you look forward to doing. whether its playing a guitar, writing poetry, or playing a sport. you just need to find a good thing and stick with it. good luck....ill IM you sometime.

[spun]

sometimes i have really good days, but as soon as i come home i'm down again. i'm lucky to have an amazing boyfriend, but i'm so scared i'm going to lose him because of my horrible mood swings. it's like someone else takes over, and i tell him i dont love him and i wish he would die, but in my head i'm screaming at myself to stop. it takes a good half hour or so for me to stop, ending in tears. this has happened since i started seeing a guy a few years ago, but it was much worse then.

everyday i wake up and desperatly wait till i can fall asleep again and not have to cope with this world. everything i see makes me despair, how are we even still alive? all i want to do sometimes is die. i have tried before, but have failed.

i try to cope by drinking excessivly, spending as much time at my boyfriends and away from home as possible, cutting myself with anything i can lay my hands on and worst/best of all, drugs. i cant help it.

so i know how you feel, all i can say is chin up.

[Loki]

There are ways around depression. Alcohol is one way, but since alcohol is a depressant, it's probably not a good idea. i like to have a good outlook on life. I see society as doomed, heading towards destruction, and ready to have a tidal wave of crap descend upon it. So whilst we're waiting for all that to happen, you might as well have some fun on the way.

If something bad happens, I always think "Well, it could be worse." or i just brush it off. The only time I've really been depressed is after splitting up with my ex-gf, and that's pretty much her fault. She just left, and I never really heard from her again. I see her from time to time, but I don't hear from her. That, coupled wit ha change of lifestyle (I'd just finished college) really put a dampner on things. I was ready to collapse. I hermited myself, and I wasn't really all that cool to hang around with. I later got over the relationship, and decided that i might as well enjoy life while I can, and that if sh*t happens, then sh*t happens. I place little importance in anything. If i win the lottery, so what? if I lose my leg, so what?

I think that the right worldview is essential for keeping your mental stability, and my worldview is different to say the least. I've met one person who has a similar worldview, and that view is that life is a joke, and death is the punchline.

To me, depression is something it takes alot to do. I have my grey days, and I have my happy days. I have the days when I act as if the world will end tomorrow. (Just like yesterday!) I think that treating life as a joke is the way forward. I see society as doomed. I hate other people with a passion. There are only a few types of people i actually get along with, and I've learned to either ignore the others or get along with them. But I'm here for the ride, and as i see it, I can enjoy myself whilst I'm living.

I'm sort of self-delusionary. If I'm not happy, i'll change my worldview to accomodate happiness. Whatever happens, as long as I can smile, that's all that matters. I've only recently adopted this worldview. (I was feeling a little depressed a few months ago.) It seems to be working. Ignirance truly is bliss. Ignore the fact that the world, life, and the economic situation is going to hell in ahandbasket. Ignore the fact that we're all going to die. Ignore the fact that tomorrow could be your last day living, and ignore whatever is bad, and focus on the good.

[Rebel Girl]

sometimes i get that way, but i usually just talk to someone or write it in a poem or something, or i do something like that..or listen to happy music!! usually i just sleep or try to get a "natural" high, which is the quickest fix for anti depressent. there is a whole website on why sex is good for you...yes well um. or i listen to kathleen hanna! bikini kill, le tigre, anything! shes good for the soul...:bow:

[Nirvana19105]

sometimes i get that way, but i usually just talk to someone or write it in a poem or something, or i do something like that..or listen to happy music!! usually i just sleep or try to get a "natural" high, which is the quickest fix for anti depressent. there is a whole website on why sex is good for you...yes well um. or i listen to kathleen hanna! bikini kill, le tigre, anything! shes good for the soul...:bow:

Heh, my sister's into all the punk chick bands, I have to be honest, le tigre doesn't thrill me.

[maple_syrup]

lol i think we all need shrinks...or at least some of us (coughaleceiffelcoughwheezecough) and me of course..no i think i would scare the shrinks with the purely weird sometimes funny only to me sometimes sickening things that my mind creates

[grain_girl]

. I see society as doomed, heading towards destruction, and ready to have a tidal wave of crap descend upon it. So whilst we're waiting for all that to happen, you might as well have some fun on the way.


Lol, I could not have said it better myself! Tidal wave of crap. Ah, yes. :) Personally, I live to fight the army of demon clowns that live in a hell deminsion located directly underneath my bed. I save the world from their destruction. Every morning before my Pop Tarts. Okay, not really, but you said not to mention the Faith thing, so I shan't. ;) I will tell you this, as frightening and grotesque as this world may be, there's some beauty there. I see it in a sleeping infant, I see it in a plate full of falafel. True, sometimes the baby screams and the falafel gets cold, but the beauty is still there, it is simply shadowed by the pain. The key is finding out how to see past pain; I look forward to the day I master this trick.

[Keeganisafish]

I feel like that right now. I dont want to do schoolowrk, I don't want to go to work. I feel useless, and that sucks a bundle.

I juts get depressed because I hate myself a lot of the time. That's lame I know. I think sleeping more makes me feel better. Or eating healthy foods. But them I eat too much, and look/feel fat again, and it never completely goes away. Only for seconds when I am talking with friends. Oh well.

[Rebel Girl]

well if the grrl punk bands dont do it for ya, find some that do. Music is a great fix for about any problem anywhere. Le Tigre is not my fav of Kathleens i like Bikini Kill more but thats not the thing. Writing your feelings out or painting them out is also good. i may sound all beatnik-y, :beatnik: , but its true. Self Expression can help alot. Screaming out to the high way is also a good one. Kicking a wall. Punch a wall (not normal wall, some of you could make holes, try cement or brick, after awhile it will hurt so you will stop) sing alot. Just try to get feelings out. keeping them in could be the worse thing you do for yourself. besides eating meat. but everyone here has stopped that! so dont keep feelings in. it hurts. trust me. :shy: or else! :brood:

Rebel Girl :bow: